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mood

2011-12-10T23:37:00.002+08:00

NEVER EVER RUIN OTHERS' GOOD MOOD WHEN YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD.

you are moody if your own personal problem, PLEASE DON'T VENT IT ON OTHERS.

your bad mood will ruin others' good mood.

i hate those who ruined others' good mood because of their own bad mood.

so, i dun want to become such a hate-worthy person.

i am typing it down to remind myself NOT TO BECOME SUCH PERSON.

i know it's difficult to control our mood, but we can control our action and the words we speak!

actually i was in a good mood, but my good mood ruined by someone who is in a bad mood.

the most terrible thing is i found out that i really almost can't stand on someone.

can't you just be flexible a bit?

perhaps, me myself also have to become more flexible.

JIA YOU!

那个不是你

2011-10-02T01:05:00.002+08:00

那个不是你

今晚，我十分的确定那个不是你

还是有点伤心的

毕竟曾经是有好感的，算得上喜欢吗? 不算吧..

更让我伤心的是我们之间心的距离...

你好像离神越来越远，而我却努力的一步一步的靠近神..

如果两个人的属灵生命差别有如此大的差距，爱神不能一样，那酱的感情神会祝福吗？

我不知道，但是我可以肯定，你不是神为我准备的那个人。

神为我准备的，是会帮助我在祂话里成长的人。

很感恩，神让我看到这么多。

当我意识到这些时....

对你，也没有那么强烈的感觉了。我相信也没有感觉了，可能还有那么一点吧。

但是，我相信我还是爱神的。

有点点的伤感，但是不严重..

明早睡醒就没事了..

明天还是美好的.. =)

a letter for Jesus

2011-09-26T21:14:00.003+08:00

Dear Lord Jesus,

i really thankful when i think of your love, your grace and all the works u'd done in my life.

I believe that You allow these difficulties come into my life with Your purpose and sure i can overcome it with Your grace because Lord Jesus you say so.

My thesis's title is given by You, Lord. You lead me to finish my thesis part 1 sure you will lead me to finish my thesis part 2 because I believe that You will finish all the works you have done in me.

Lord, thank you for letting me to know how realistic is the people. I was hurt yet i believe that you will heal me with your love.

Lord Jesus, i wish to serve You more but i am afraid that i will give up b4 You come. I admit that i am not ready yet and my passion for You is diluted, i want to improve my relationship with you, Lord. I used to love others with my own love, but now i want to love others with Your love. Save me, Lord.

Bonnie.

silent

2010-12-13T13:38:00.003+08:00

Pastor Simon said that silent causes confusion

Sara from CSI LV said that sometimes, not making a decision is making a decision.

yea..i think i agree with these two statements.

不说，让人抓不透你想什么

说了，也不是所有人都明白你想表达的

有些事情过去了，还是不可能抹掉

当你伤了一个人，你就种了一根刺在那个人的心中

拔不掉了

假冒伪善

2010-11-25T04:28:00.002+08:00

现在是凌晨4点钟

不是张智城的凌晨3点钟

又失眠了，又流泪了

我承认我是假冒伪善的

很多东西我还是选择埋藏在心里，不和人说..

可是有些东西埋太久真的会爆发的

原来我一直都过不到一些难关，

一些人的离开真的对我留下了深深的影响

一些人的所作所为真的是虚伪到我不知如何是好

我想

我把我的心关起来了

无论听到什么，都关了

以前是听到一些话题才会关，但是现在对谁都关了

人，就是酱...

man alway fail us, only God will not fail us.

Yes, i know about this.

I truly believe that God will not fail me, He never fail me before.

Yet, i don't know how to overcome the problem when man fail me.

有些人，亲口答应一些事情，

结果所作的和所答应的差太远了

叫我如何可以继续的相信？

有些信任一旦被摧毁了，就真的没有了

俗话说得好，建立信任需要10年，但是摧毁信任知需一秒钟

是的，现在的我，很难去相信别人所说的..

今晚的vnp我真的被炸到很够力..

是的，我是埋藏了很多心底的想法

是的，我在给撒旦机会来攻击我

但是，要如何和人分享我最内心的东西当我对人已经失去信任？

最近这两晚都在眼泪拥护下睡着

我也不想的

但是，想想自己在大学的这几年

我的心已经留下一些疤痕了

每每想起一些人都让我痛苦到流泪

来临的感恩小组，我都不知道要如何去面对

要我说感恩的话，绝对是没有问题

但是，我又会很讨厌我自己是如此假冒伪善的一个人

曾经何时，我以自己的真为傲..

但是，现在的我已经虚伪得我自己都看不起我自己

是不是，人经过了岁月的磨练，都失去了最初的纯真？

寂寞寂寞就好

2010-11-01T23:33:00.002+08:00

这首歌一直从我的电脑播出...

今天repeat了很多很多次...

突然想到一个问题问自己，"我害怕寂寞吗？"

我想..我是怕寂寞的...

朋友易找，知己难寻..

我想我应该没有几个知己吧..大家都忙自己的事..

从开始进教会到现在..

这个问题还是没有被解决..我还是没有在教会里找到一个知己(姐妹)..

嗯..弟兄和姐妹之间真的有纯纯的友谊吗？

有些微妙的变化..会影响这个纯友谊吗？

这个问题，被ah ma抓住问...

我也答不出个所以然来..

答有纯友谊，下个问题-为什么要单独出去? 又哑口无言..

答没有纯友谊，根本就是在拿着一把刀给别人来刺自己.. ==

如果没有，那我和他之间的关系是什么?

别想太多了，我也没剩多少时间在这里..

就快要去别的地方进行实习了..

还是别想太多了，感情放多了,自己辛苦..

已经知道结果了，就别放太多感情了..

爱自己好..=)

done and haven't done

2010-10-20T01:09:00.005+08:00

i have done my thesis presentation...

thanks God for the presentation..

i have done my portfolio for career search..

but still got a little bit problem..

just about the hyper-link..but i think it will be alright..

i haven't done cst assignment...

i haven't done tp3 project...

i haven't done SAD project..

seem like things that i have done are less than things i haven't done..

which mean i still have a lots of things need to be done..

sad to see this...T.T

anyway, i would like to talk about my thesis presentation..

at the moment i knew who are my evaluator, i was very nervous and panic..

i worried so much for the presentation until i can't concentrate on the preparation..

the evaluators are killer, they like to ask some questions on implementation..

i am very weak in implementation..so

i cannot calm down my mood and prepare for the slides..

i cannot stay still...

i cannot slept well on sat night..

then..i went for Sunday service at Hope church..

the testi shared and the sermon on that day encouraged me a lots..

the title of the sermon is wining impossible battles..

God really answer my prayer..as i asked God what to do to fight for the presentation..

my supervisor also couldn't help me in the preparation for presentation..

her msg for me was :"if you are confident just go ahead and present."

i was shocked with the msg..

anyway, i dun hv seniors to help me as well..

but i have God.. =)

during the presentation, i was interrupted by one of the stupid evaluator, keep asking stupid questions...

another evaluator asked me some questions till i dunno how to answer the questions.

i thought my presentation will be bad..

but..amazingly, the comments given by the evaluator are quite good..

just need to make some changes on a diagram..

so, overall is ok..

b4 i went for presentation, i received a lots of encouraging msg from bro sis and friends.

the msg which touched me a lot..is the msg from my dear..

dear, u r reading this post? haha

thank you very much, dear.

be still

2010-10-07T01:12:00.002+08:00

我的情绪还是很大起大落..

一点点小事都可以弄到我很...可以说失控..

但是我又不觉得自己失控..

或许我就是不成熟..

怎样都学不会成熟..

很..............

心中有股很莫名的感觉..

很难受...

我不想和亲爱的吵架的...

我根本就没有意思要吵..

可能我们都反应过敏了..

可是我不想和她说it's ok..

什么时候我才学会be still and hurt free?

情绪

2010-10-06T16:39:00.002+08:00

最近的情绪很多..心情起伏很大..

很多事情发生..都很严重的影响我的情绪..

有开心，伤心，失望，感恩..等等什么情绪都有..

刚刚和我亲爱的聊了很久，也聊了很多..

说说开心的吧..开心的就是

我终于交上我的thesis了..

真的很开心很感恩我可以在这么短的时间里完成我的thesis..

我知道这一切并不是靠着我自己的能力能做到的..

唯有耶稣能帮我完成.. =)

还有满多其它的开心的事..不过并不影响深刻.. 哈哈..

伤心失望的就是

最近喜欢上了一个人，但是

同样的也被伤害了..

说不伤心，是骗人的..说不难过，是不可能的..

但是..这些都是生活必经的过程...

我不想拥有太多情绪..我很希望我能很快的过了这关..

我以为我能，我以为我可以..

但是...原来都是自己在硬撑..我撑到很辛苦..

到刚才和亲爱的聊起..我不知不觉地掉泪了...

我才发现原来我做不到..我还撑不到怎么多..

我的心还是有感觉的..我还是没有完全放下..

觉得自己很没有用..为什么酱都撑不过来..

没有什么值得我再掉泪的..

我和我自己说，这是我最后一次为他掉泪..

这是最后一次我在亲爱的面前为他掉泪..

我不落泪，忍住感觉..哭久了会累..没有人会心疼我的眼泪..

我落泪..情绪零碎..

我不要再为他掉泪了..没有什么值得我掉泪的..

亲爱的，如果你看到这个post..我觉得你看到的机会应该很小

但是，我还是要说..

亲爱的，谢谢你..谢谢你的肩膀，你的关心..

如果下次我再为他掉泪..骂醒我吧..

坐在我对面的人

2010-08-21T17:47:00.003+08:00

现在我在starbuck..坐在我对面的人是和我一起来的..

是一个女子..今天整个下午我都和她在一起...

因为她今天去捐血了..我就陪她一起去..其实我是去carry out my duty in blood donation..

她就是和我同房了两年的前室友..两年，不长不短，但是占据了我大学生活里的3/4...

我的大学生活只有这么短的三年..两年..真的一起经历了很多..

从第一年的单纯到现在的成熟..我们都一起经历了..

无论谁看到她，都会赞她美..是的，她真的美..就是那种让人看一眼就会留下印象的美女..

但是并不是倾国倾城，沉鱼落雁的那种绝世美女..

她有属于她自己的美...一种只能在她身上找到的美...

没有明显突出的五官，嘴唇稍微性感，小眼睛小耳朵..就拼凑了一种美丽的脸孔..

加上她自己独特开朗的性格，格外惹人喜爱..所以她的追求者也是多到数不出..

不要看她小小只，美美的就很好欺负或很脆弱..其实她比谁都坚强..

身体比谁都健康..我们住一起两年，她生病的数次，用一边手来数都绰绰有余..

睡少过6个小时还能捐血..捐完过后还精神奕奕...

她不是一个会静静坐在家里的女子，她很外向...

很喜欢结交新朋友..她也很容易和人变成朋友因为她很friendly..

她喜欢趴趴走..没有一刻静得下来..除了她做功课读书的时间..

但是..她并不是这么容易向人透露她自己内心深处的想法..

我自问有时都不是很了解她..哈哈..惭愧咯..

其实，一个女子还能坚强到哪里去..她内心也是很脆弱的..

但是真的看到她变了，更成熟了..更美了..成熟美..

经历了这么多也很心疼她，每一次看到她的泪，就痛在我心里...

但是一个人不经历沧桑如何成长?

每一个人都需要为自己的选择负责任..都需要去承担选择所带来的negative consequences..

我希望她的下一个幸福真的可以不再让她流泪..流的泪也应该是幸福感动的泪..

加油咯，my ex-roommate....=)

this week

2010-08-21T00:34:00.002+08:00

today is Saturday which mean this week come to its weekend..

i gone through this week in a busy and stressful condition..

i was up to my neck with my assignments, tutorials and thesis..

i have 3 tests for next week..all the tests gonna kill me..

my supervisor requests me to come out with my chapter 2 by next week..

everything has to be done by next week...

argh.......how can it be done??

i skipped my church's activities due to the busyness...

my ah ma even came to look for me and advise me..

haiz..last nite i got a little argue with "traffic light"..

he seems like angry with me..but is jz bcoz he cares me..

last nite i only know that he really cares about me..

but..we dun have the chance to continue and build our relationship..

it is too late..

now is not the suitable time to start a new relationship too..

so, i have to control my heart..to focus on right things..

can i make it? =)

there is a blood donation at Skudai Parade today..from 10am till 4pm..

my dear and me will attend it.. =)

we are looking forward to donate our blood.. haha..

emo @@

2010-08-12T02:10:00.002+08:00

today..ops..no..now is 12 Aug oledi..should be yesterday..
yesterday was not a happy day for me..
i could not slept well at night..i worried about my mountain of to-do tasks...
i still participated in the cg and steamboat fellowship..
but..i was regret to join the steamboat.. meaningless..
the purpose is just to eat..
However, i enjoyed the movie during cg..
the title of the movie is October Sky.
It is a true story about an ambitious boy or teen.
He grown in a coal village where all the villages worked as worker for coal mining..
He disliked coal because coal will influence healthy.
So, he decided to build his own rocket when he saw the the satellite on the sky.
The satellite can fly up to the sky is just because the rocket sent it up.
Although he gone through a lots of challenges and problems especially from his father,
he did not give up in the end.
At last, he was success!
I wont deny that it is an inspiring movie, but it is really a nice movie.

I get an email from my friend regarding to my internship.
It was not a good news yet not a terrible news.
Still, it darken my days and I become more moody after i read the mail.

Now, i am very stress and busy with all the assignments and tasks.
I failed to control my temper and emotion.
Yesterday, it was not a good day for me.

holiday !!

2010-08-10T17:09:00.002+08:00

fui yoh!!! tomoro is public holiday for Johor..
Malays start their fasting month tomoro.. xD
finally have a time to relax a bit.. but not much..
today i finally completed the questionnaire for my thesis..
i started to do CS assignment too..and thank God i only left 1 question haven't solved.
still have a lots of tasks on my to-do list..
AI assignment, SAD assignment, English assignment, Thesis chapter 1 and gan chatt, tp3 fyp..
and a lots again...
although tomoro is holiday..but i am not sure my time is free for me to complete my tasks or not..
planning for tomoro is - 3pm care group (movie time) after that will be the time for fellowship (steamboat) hehehe...morning time maybe will spent with my leng ma..
yet..i believe God's grace is sufficient for me.. =)

today my friend submitted my cv to her superior d...
hopefully i can get the good news from her company..
pray pray pray..

short update

2010-08-07T10:06:00.002+08:00

now only i realize that i did not update my blog for quite a long time d..
well..now is august..I skipped May, June and July in my blog..
actually i experienced a lot within these 3 months..
just i always forget to chop them down in my blog due to some internet connection problem..

I was at my sweet sweet home for the whole month of May..
I enjoyed a lot during my time at home.. great fellowship with my family members and dear old friends..
I always give thanks that i have 2 little brother and sisters.. both of them brought a lot of fun to me.. I spent most of time with them because both of them had the most free time..

I backed to JB in the middle of June..then i headed to Port Dickson for a church camp..
I'd learned a lot from the camp.. actually is God reopen my heart to Him.
So, today i am still in the same church serving my beloved Father..
a great month where i had experienced God more..
Thanks God for touching my frozen heart.. =)

In the beginning of July, i got another good experience in KL..
I visited my relatives in KL on the 1st day of July..
After 2 days i stayed at KL.. my relatives asked me to work in her company since i was very free and have nothing to do at there.. So, i decided to work as a part timer at her company..
My manager really treated me in such a good and caring way.
However, I don't really like to work at KL due to the life and working style in KL..
everything is moving with a very high speed.. have to fight against time every day..
a very stressful and busy working style..
I worked for a week only, then i back to my university to continue my study..
My new semester started in the middle of July..
It is a brand new semester for me.
I got a new roommate, new room and many new things are just around me such as thesis, new subjects and application for internship.
By God's grace i can handle those new things so far. =)

August.. i think will be a very tough month..
I have to decide my future due to the internship..
Some companies offer me to have my internship at their company but the requirement is I have to work for them after i graduate..
One company is at KL where I worked b4..
One company is at Senai which is near to my university.
I don't know how to decide.
Teach me, Oh Lord. Which decision is Your will?

未来室友

2010-04-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

最后，大家又住回一起了
没有人搬走...这是好事
不过，有了一点小小的改变..大家彼此换室友..
原因是室友之间有一些conflict...
所以大家就摊开来讲..说说自己对roommate的要求。。
conclusion..我和我现在的室友要分开了
下个学期我会有新的室友，其实也不是新啦
之前都是housemate..
大家都是在学习当中...everyone is not prefect..
下个学期要学会更加放下自己的authority..stand on the gap..
to become a blessing for others...
now i oni realise what is mean by be a blessing to others..
gonna learn more..so that i can let go more..
is a good time for me to grow in Christ too..
so that i can 结出圣灵的果子
at least..有其中一样，温柔..
关门要小小声...哈哈..
gonna prepare heart for the coming new sem during this semester break..

改变

2010-03-28T01:01:00.003+08:00

昨晚开始对自己的生活习惯做出了小小的改变

可是，昨晚我开着桌灯睡着了

平时，我会开着桌灯睡觉是因为室友还没睡或还没回

室友回到房间时怕黑漆漆，所以我通常都开桌灯给她

可是，昨晚并不是因为室友的原因而开桌灯

原因是要改变自己来适应接下来生活的改变

让自己可以慢慢的适应开桌灯睡觉的情况

我不知道未来会怎样

我只知道如果自己不先做出改变，

那以后就很难和不一样的人相处..

要人尊敬你，首先自己要先尊敬对方..

一人退一步，和平相处..

如果我未来的室友是要开灯睡觉的，

而我又是要关灯睡觉的

那，我们要如何能和平相处？

如果到那时才来改变，恐怕太迟了

而且心里也会很难受，充满委屈..

所以，我对自己说

不能一直安于现状，不要等到生活的改变静悄悄临到时才慌乱

未雨绸缪，让自己flexible一点

毕竟我们不能把自己的原则应用在别人身上

这个世界不是绕着我转

很感恩有一个这样的室友，陪我走过了两年的大学生活

一直都很庆幸自己有这么一个室友..

甜和苦我们都一起走过了..

笑也一起笑过了，哭也一起哭过了，吵也一起吵过了有时还搬到别人面前吵..哈哈

骂也一起骂过了，怨也怨过了，丢东西也丢过了，最重要的是彼此安慰..

我这两年的大学宿舍生活有了她的陪伴真是多姿多彩..

知道她对我好，所以我也努力的对她好..应该算对她不差吧..希望是..哈哈

我相信，到我们真的要搬的那天

我心里的不舍一定会是100%..现在都有50%了..

应该是当我看到名单的那一刻起，心里的不舍都已经是50%了..

但是，努力的不让这一份不舍控制着..

毕竟天下无不散之筵席..

所以把这一份不舍收在心里，用个好的心态来迎接新的一个学期..=)

生活。成长

2010-03-26T14:30:00.002+08:00

人活在世上，地球在公转，自转
在你不知觉中时间一直在偷偷的走
我们往往一直在说要珍惜身边的人和事物
可是往往我们只说不做，有时也不懂要怎么做才是珍惜
一旦到失去了，才发现自己已经没有时间去珍惜了
那时才来后悔和禰补被时间偷走的失去
时间一直在走，生活一直在进行
人也被逼一直的成长
生命都会来到一个境界，被生活所逼
当你失去一些在你生命中曾经很重要的人，
就要学会放下不舍得的感觉
不舍得舍不得都要舍得
因为这是成长
成长是生命的过程

最近喜欢的一首歌-21 guns

end of march

2010-03-26T14:20:00.002+08:00

skip my diary during Feb as i was really busy during Feb..
after i back from CNY holiday, my assignments, presentations, quizzes just cant stop attacking me..
i was so stress for all of the tasks..
personally also experiences some changes..
yet i dunno whether i overcome it already or not..
or maybe i just use busy as reason and hide all the problems..
now come to study week..
all the tasks come to a stop...but not end..
i still left a mini project to be presented during study week..
still have to work hard on it.. as i really dun familiar with those things..
the busy period drive me mad and exhausted..
start to worry about my future..as next year will be my final year in university..

drown in cny atmosphere

2010-01-26T09:25:00.002+08:00

i'd changed my flight ticket during cny..hahahaha..
i am reali excited...i can go back to my sweet sweet hometown to celebrate cny!!
honestly, b4 i dun think got any special or difference celebrating cny at home or out of the hometown..now i reali know how special and difference to celebrate cny at my sweet sweet home..
last year i celebrated my cny at west malaysia..the feeling is reali...not very good..
totally dun had the feeling celebrate together with family...
no the tired feeling after clean the house together, no firecracker.. no many many things at home..
oni got new experience to travel on highway...
well, it was not a bad experience too...i traveled to many new places during that cny on 2009.
this experience oso taught me to appreciate my sweet sweet family especially during cny..
so this year 2010..i must go back to my sweet sweet hometown to celebrate cny!!..
thanks God that i can back for the celebration..xD
since last night..i am drown in cny atmosphere...
cny songs played non-stop..even now oso listen to cny songs..
i reali desire to head back to my hometown soon!!
even though next week will fly back soon...hahaha...
Happy Chinese New Year

coming back

2010-01-23T22:44:00.002+08:00

lolz..cant remember how long i din update my blog..
start from that bp trip..i seem like totally ignore my blog..
well..through out the periods, start from batu pahat trip on 2009 until today 23 Jan 2010
inevitably there were too much things and events happened...
last sem reali was too busy until i dun hv any time to update my blog...
after finish the semester..i went for traveling with my coursemates and lovely roommate..
it was a wonderful memory for me..as it was my first time to have a trip with friends alone..without parents or any elder..
we drove car ourselves to destination and talked nonsense on the car..
the places that we went for trip were normal but the wonderful part for me is the close relationship and nice atmosphere..feeling throughout the whole trip..
after finish the trip..i went for church's camp in putra jaya..
again..it was a super wonderful and powerful camp..i'd learn a lots about God's word from the camp..
finally i went back to my sweet hometown after the camp..
however, i oni back to hometown for a short period..
began the new semester on 14 dec 2009..
until today where i just completed the mid term test of a subject..
the coming week will be a very busy week since i got 2 mid term tests and a lots of submission..
hopefully everything will go on smoothly...

batu pahat trip...

2009-09-24T13:11:00.002+08:00

来到batu pahat已经有4，5天了..
不是去了很多地方，因为大家都很忙，没什么得空出去酱..
去了batu pahat mall shopping...扫了一件衣服和一双高跟鞋..哈哈..
也去了batu pahat 的大伯公庙，跟我hometown的还蛮不一样下...
昨晚就真的够刺激下的咯...和另外一些朋友去了情人桥...
要上去那个地方是要经过一段的山路..像initial D里面的山路酱咯..
哈哈，用这个形容好像夸张了点..
上到上面，有座寺庙，我们就走进去咯...
里面有很大只的巨龙女...真的很大只下，黑红的...
听说摸了巨龙女之后，如果够幸运就会中头奖咯..
我也没有去试，毕竟我是基督徒...
然后我们就去走情人桥，这座情人桥一点都不浪漫咯...==
黑嘛嘛，旁边又没有栏杆围住，那座桥的路还是中间有缝的...穿高跟鞋是肯定不能走的咯..
走到一半我朋友他们还就地坐下...真的是够力恐怖...==
更恐怖的还在后头...去到一个又是黑嘛嘛的海边...完全没有灯光除了月光...
在那个海边还可以看到小猫两三只...==
after that..我个人觉得最恐怖的就是这条路了咯...
on the way 上山上的灯塔...很斜很窄的一段路...
旁边还充满了树木，还有一些好像没人住的屋子...==
我又坐beside driver seat...前面的"风景"是一览无遗咯...
我们下山的时候，根本就是用free gear来下..几斜那条路...
anyway...回到朋友家时大概已经1点了...
还蛮不错的experience...=)

membership day

2009-09-08T22:05:00.002+08:00

finally i had decided to follow Jesus..
i still remember on the membership day...
i stand in front of the audience with 10++ other new member..
my new care group leader and shepherd pray for me..
den everyone walk around to congratulate me..
as 1st..my emotion and mood is still ok..
dun have very big up and down..
but..once i saw my ex care group leader...
my drop start to fall down quickly...same thing happen to her..
both of us reali cry till...
i oso never know that i will getting so touch..
my ex care group leader..she is the one who lead and guide me for one year ago..
she never give up of me..even tot i disappointed her so many times..
she is the one who watching my spiritual life grow from a baby to kids..
now it is getting mature...cannot drink milk anymore..
even though she fall down ..but she din give up, she din choose to leave God..
this is another big encouragement to me...
my courage and decision to become a member is a great encouragement to her too..
as she can c i grow up...the one she guides for a long time finally grow up...
reali have to jia you for my spiritual life..

recently owez like to sleep...
dunno why owez feel very tired...
luckily this week is not very busy with the homework..
finally can rest a little while..=)

hmmm...

2009-09-05T09:15:00.002+08:00

actuali i dun mean to force anyone...
i know how tired they are...
i reali dun want this to happen...
7 early 8 early..mood not good d..
but still have to be strong...
i wish everyone can be happy...

tmr will be my big big day...
i am going to marry to Jesus...haha..
i will formally become a member of Hope Church...
=)

感性

2009-08-14T10:30:00.004+08:00

我发现最近我好像变得很感性...不懂是好事还是坏事..
就昨天一天里面我掉了两次眼泪..
还是对着电脑掉泪....==
昨天，星期四，我早上有quiz，晚上有mid term test..
早上的quiz应该还可以..可是考完quiz我还是很紧张..
因为我还没为我晚上的考试做好准备..还没读完..
其实不只晚上有考试，星期六，星期一和星期三都有考试..都还没准备好..
整个人就是压力很大...
然后我遇到我在msn遇到我"阿妈"..
就希望她wish me good luck in the exam..
结果她没有wish me luck..but she pray for me..
she pray as below:
Dear Lord Jesus, may You bless my lovely Bonnie that she will has the peace and joy in You. Knowing tat You are the reason she rejoice, You are the strength when she is weak. Bless her when You see her heart to glorify You. Lift her up as she humble herself before You. draw her heart close to You. In Your most precious name I pray, Amen.
我真的很感动..当她把这个type给我的时候..
我一边读一边掉泪...
是的，很多时候我都忘记了主是我最大的力量...一定要依靠他才能得胜..
另一个就是我的牧者..也是在msn上...
也是说了一些很鼓励我的话..
所以就又再一次落泪了...
我真的很感谢神，把我带到这里来，认识这个教会，认识教会的人
也更认识Jesus..
Rejoice in Lord~~

乌龟

2009-08-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

在三个星期前的星期三晚上..我的roommate拿着鱼缸和两只乌龟进房...
就酱两只乌龟走进了我的生命...
虽然这两只乌龟不是属于我的...但是我承认我这个tortoise-sitter真的有用心去照顾它们..
每天喂它们吃乌龟料，帮它们换水..放它们出来爬..为它们祷告...
虽然有一只一来的时候就没有开过眼睛,也不会什么爬..但是我还是为它们祷告..
希望天父能让它挣开眼睛看这个世界...
果然，在两个星期前，我真的看到它开了眼睛..只是就只有那么一次..
虽然只有一次，但已经很好了..at least 我看过它开眼睛的样子..很有神..
之后，它就一直处于不动状态...
另外一只本来是很活泼的...它会挣开眼睛，会到处爬..
我还把它爬的时候record起来..小小只的东西在动，爬两下就停下来，拍拍自己的头..很可爱...
现在想起，还好我有把它record起来..at least有个东西可以回忆它们..
这只活泼的，昨天早上突然嘴边出现伤口，不清楚它怎么弄伤的..
晚上就看到它流血流到整个嘴巴都是血...
我们就把它放进另一个鱼缸...让它的头可以放在比较干的地方..
at least 它不会因为弄到水而痛苦..
可是..今天早上起来看..它也不动了..
一直到晚上..发出臭味了..我们都知道必须面对现实了..

虽然到最后，它们还是回到了父的身边..但是感谢神让他们进入我的生命..
用它们来向我见证神的大能..让它开眼睛..
这两只乌龟会一直在我心中的..因为它们，我有所突破..
它们是我roommate的爱情结晶品，现在它们死了，主人的爱情也完了...

乌龟惊魂记..

2009-08-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

今晚献出了第一次…
不要想歪了..
But..我真的是完完全全的被吓到傻…
第一次..喊到酱够力…喊到很大声，很久…= =
然后就是眼泪狂掉…
这种场面hor..我一直都觉得不太可能发生在我身上..觉得这种行为是柔弱女子的所为
真的没有想到也会发生在我身上..我从来都不会承认我是柔弱女子的咯..
刚刚..我roommate就放了她的两只乌龟在地上..
然后我走过时，看到其中一只不动了..那只本来就比较虚弱..
我嘛很吓倒，以为它活不久了…= =
我roommate跑来跟我一起很紧张的看着它…
我拿起它仔细的观察…发现到它真的连呼吸的动都没有..
谁知道那只乌龟突然流出了青青色的水，滴在我脚上!!
我的反应就是..放声的喊一边快手快脚放下乌龟..
喊到很大声，很久下..
在我喊的同时，我roommate就在旁边放声的大哭..= =
我们都以为是乌龟死掉了，然后流下身体里面的液体出来…= =
其实我也不是很清楚我为什么会喊到酱够力…
等到我平息下来时，我就很好奇，把乌龟拿起来再看一次..
那时我roommate还在哭..哭到很大声很丑下..= =
再看一次的时候，发现又有那个青青色的液体..不过这次看清楚了..
从乌龟尾巴的一个洞流出来的，应该是排泄物..
然后再过一阵子，那只乌龟有一点呼吸了…然后就手脚会动一点了..
原来它还活着…
我和我roommate真的是虚惊一场….
不过，也算是有突破..我第一次喊到酱够力，她第一次因为死了宠物而哭到酱…= =

hmm...

2009-07-28T18:55:00.002+08:00

start from this sem...my shepherd has been changed..same as my care group leader..
actuali i knw my new shepherd, she is same hometown with me..
i like her style..i think she is quite yao yeng..tall tall and thin thin one..haha
so..i hv to start to learn share things with my new shepherd...
at 1st, everything is ok...
but after yesterday...i notice tat there are some changes in me...
b4 i let Jesus christ enter my heart, it's quite hard for me to love sum1 sincerely..
i mean love friends...
but..last sunday..i'd told 3 persons tat i love them..
my ah ma, my ex shepherd and my ex care group leader..
they help me a lot ..no matter in spiritually or physically..
it look weird...coz i din tell my new shepherd so...
yesterday..a little little incident happened between us...
after the incident and the preaching from pastor last nite..
it is reali a great desire in my heart...i wan to tell my new shepherd tat i love her too..
finally, i did as wat i desire...
quite scare to tell her so...coz she is very yao yeng in my heart..haha..
i reali hope tat she wont be dumb dumb bcoz of the incident..

today i finish class early than usual...4pm oledi back to hostel..
suppose nid to study until 7pm...
i am reali happy to heard tis good news...
i hope every tue can finish class at 4pm..haha..xD

压力

2009-07-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

真的有很大的压力...
这个sem好像很压力...不知道是不是因为和厉害的同学同班..
不清楚那个压力从何而来...
可是就是压力..怕自己输到很难看...
我又被某个厉害的同学下挑战书...让我更大压力...
压力到我必须放弃参与中秋的ajk...
好让我有更多的时间放在功课上...
明天要去做gym来解压下...

back to utm

2009-07-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

再一次回到了utm...
可是这次回来真的有很大的转变...
我还蛮吓倒的...
又要开始拼功课...

long time din update d..

2009-06-14T22:27:00.002+08:00

actuali i back to my hometown on 11 mei...
but dun hv the time to update my blog...
coz keep on doing other things...watching drama and playing game are the most important..
actuali many things happen during my holiday..
the most sad thing is the news tat my previous maths teacher was far away from us d..
back to God's place...
pass away in an accident...reali sad to heard the news..
anyway...hope his family can come over this hard time...

talk about happy things...
my sis get jpa scholarship...will hv the chance to study at united state..
she is reali blessed...she will study at inti ( ng sembilan ) 1st for 2 years..
den will study at united state for 3 years...
a big challenge for her..
anothe big n happy thing is.. a new car is parking at my house..
thanks God for gving my family a new car..
altot it is not a very branded car , it's still a blessing from God..

talk about my job...
actuali i was very tired of the work...
so i will stop working next week...
but i oso gain a lot of fun at woking place thr..
knw a malay girl at thr...super humorous...conversation with her sure full with laughter..
others are nice to me oso..except summone lo...
i cant make everyone like me mah...
tat's all for today...will update more when i am free..

update下

2009-05-09T23:46:00.002+08:00

现在才发现原来我很久没有update我的Blog了...
不是我不得空咯..是太得空到整天追戏...
追戏嘛追到忘记update blog咯..
其实4月30号我就考完final了咯...可是我现在还在utm...
but..gonna back home soon...hehe...
只10天真的是够力得空咯....得空到...
有人讲很好听要陪我，结果自己三天两头有节目，嘛不是丢我一个人在这里...
算了，我也没权要求什么..
这几天看完了学警狙击，现在看着大冬瓜..
学警狙击很好看下...
从开始就生病了，一直病到现在还没好...一直咳嗽..咳到肺都要出来了...
希望真的可以快快好...

其实这几天也去了一趟labis..segamat附近...
去那里一日游...去了air panas...浸了air panas..脚变红烧猪脚了..==
也不懂是不是去了那个air panas..让我的咳嗽越来越厉害...
可能热过头...那个热气不是普通的热咯..鸡蛋丢下去应该会熟...==

过了明天我就回家啦...很开心下..

exam week..suffering..

2009-04-25T11:17:00.002+08:00

actuali start from the study week..the following weeks are the suffering week for me..
everyday lack of sleep...not i dun wan to sleep..is i cannot fall asleep...
maybe is bcoz of the tension for the exam..
last few days my whole body getting hot...the weather recently is damn hot oso...
even sleep oso will sweat..
then start coughing again....
haiz...life during exam week reali very tough...
wish the exam week can finish soon.........
so that i can sleep well...............

my 21st birthday

2009-04-19T14:57:00.002+08:00

many surpirse for my 21st birthday...
i hv my special cake..12 big apple donut arrange become a 'B' shape..
my housemates did all the preparation without my knowledge..
i couse them nearly to hv heart attack..coz i keep on go in n out of my room...haha
some coursemates bought me a cloth..quite surprise oso..
and one of my male coursemate make a card for me...every girl will get one card from him on their birthday...all the card are the same one...haha
and..many phone calls and sms wishes..
i think i jz roughly describe about it...
coz tmr start my final exam..not yet prepare tim..==

but...today..my 1st sunday service at my 21 years old..
i swap my tear during praise n worship section..
God's spirit reali touched my heart...
the tear drop down without my knowledge..nearly cant stop it..
i very very very shock with it..i never expected this things will happen on me..
i heard some words..is God speak to me
"Dun be affraid..everything will be possible in Christ"
i think i will hv my turning point in my spiritual life..

again...my roommate...

2009-04-13T23:31:00.002+08:00

duh..tonite i attend an gathering of my form 6's classmate...
i tot...the topic will around the things happend or people in sibu...
but.........out of my exceptation...
the topic is on my lovely roommate!!! big bomb to me...==
once they saw me...1st sentence is..
"long time din c u o..."
next sentence is "ur roommate bla bla bla..."
actuali i reali shocked with wat he asked...
after finish talking with them..step into the shop..
i jz hv my seat...
the one sit beside me ask me a question...
"do u knw xxx?" xxx is my roommate's name....reali big big bomb again...
my roommate reali is too charming and popular.................
den start to talk with him about my roommate oso..
if i am not mistaken..his roommate wanna chase my roommate...==
why seem i like whr i go..sure her name will appear around me even tot she is not beside me..
not tat i dun wan to leave her...she is too popular la...
even the gathering of sibu's friend oso talk about her..swt..

roommate

2009-04-13T11:52:00.002+08:00

now reali wondering should i apply for single room next sem..
my 'lovely' roommate..duh...keep on talking on phone at the midnight..
most terrrible is..everytime she talked on phone sure will waked me up..
damn damn...
reali very suffer ah.....................................
shit........................
not tat i dun wan to sleep early..i oso scare pimples ah...
but is sumone cant let me sleep.............shit....
now i reali hving headache... very headache...maybe c bcoz lack of sleep...

headache...troublesome..

2009-04-10T10:32:00.002+08:00

final is coming soon...yet..still hv a lot of assignments not yet submitted...
damn programming lecturer...damn damn damn damn damn !!!!
oni gv us 2 days to start and complete the mini project....and hv to present it soon...
after present...he gv his silly comments somemore..........shit
he commented that my program is too simple...nid to redo..
bullshit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i reali dun hv time to do so much silly things again..
i nid to prepare for my final,,k!!!!!!!!
tis few weeks reali is very suck for me...
not oni the education problem...others stuff oso very troublesome...
all of these reali drive me mad!!!!!
i wanna go back home SOON!!!!!!

saying impossible things...
wat to do? complain so much oso useless..
he is lecturer...he likes to do in tis way..nth we can do to fight with him..
he is the one who gv marks...damn..
how unfair it is..asshole....
wat we can do is oni..grin and bear it...damn shit....

i believe

2009-04-07T21:58:00.002+08:00

i believe i can make it..
i believe i can control my emotion..
i trust myself...
i must control myself..
i wont let they drive over me..
i must myself to be worthy...
i dun wan make myself seem like useless ppl..
我不要成为天生的付出者without feedback..
i must change..
i believe i can make it!!!!!

04/04/2009

2009-04-04T00:07:00.002+08:00

那个saman真的弄到我很烦...
然后刚刚也才刚讲完电话..
跟我讲电话的人是我的同乡老婆
我很庆幸我刚才有call她..
我才了解到她那里的生活..虽然我们同样的在一间大学..
不同课系，不同宿舍就酱大差别..
我真的要很庆幸上帝给了我酱好的一个环境...

其实她的同性缘也很好下...
我有炸到的咯其实..听到她讲的时候..
我老婆嘛...是有一定的魅力咯..哈哈
我发现原来我也很会选人下，我们course最attractive的两个女子
我都和她们不错下，很close咯其实，其中一个就整天和我同一个房的..
另外一个，也不错的...举动都蛮亲密了..哈哈..

duh...烦啊...

2009-04-03T12:21:00.002+08:00

真的很烦啊....................................
中一个saman做莫中到酱烦.................
我很相信我朋友是帮我还了saman的...
真的....我相信主里的家人......
可是....为什么就这么奇怪???

31 March

2009-03-31T20:52:00.002+08:00

31 March is very special date for my roommate i think..
haha..bcoz of this date she is speechless and cannot fight back watever i said about the date..xD
anyway..hope that she can enjoy her date..

actuali i hv no idea wat should i blogging about...
coz this fews day jz pass normally..
my hp not yet send to repair...
i think i will get use to the life without hand phone..
back to the life hundred years ago..lolz..
recently all course mates are very busy with the project, assignments and presentation..
for us..altot we are very busy oso..but we still hv the time to enjoy gossip time...haha..
this is wat we call gepo naturally...haha
yesterday sth happend in my class..quite 轰动...other section oso knw d..
definitely the male and female main character are from my class..
they hv some "news" b4..but not hot news compare to others..
but i think it will be more hot after yesterday..haha
the girl not feeling well at the 1st lesson (yesterday got 4 lesson from 9am until 6pm continuously)
the girl is one of my housemates and she sit beside me in the class..
since she looks so suffer..so i ask another guy who drive car to class to fetch her back to hostel..
bcoz worry that she will faint or wat if she went back by bus alone..
den..that guy directly gv the key to the male main character...xD
so they drive the car...all of us tot that the boy will back in half n hour..
coz our hostel is inside the campus..
who knws..they back together after 3 hours....the boy absent to the class bcoz of the girl..haha
my section witnessed 2 of them board the car..another section accidentally saw them at somewhr outside campus...another section pula saw them get down from the car...
tis can be consider as the all software engineering students witness their outing..haha..
den..the story started...bla bla bla...very funny lo..
pity the boy n girl..but..i think the boy very enjoy geh..haha..

画皮

2009-03-29T00:26:00.002+08:00

刚才earth hour的一个小时，大家都关灯，然后全部跑来我房间..
挤在我roommate的书桌前，看ppstream..然后就选到画皮这部戏..==
这部戏还真的是不错看...应该是很好看..
快要到结局的情节还有点料想不到的..不过都还蛮感动的..
我们大概有6个人一起看，1个看过了，2个没有看完整套，断断续续的看..
只有3个是整套戏都没有离开过的..看到最后有2个一起看的朋友看到掉泪..我就是没有掉泪的那个..还蛮冷血下我...==
这部戏还有点色色的情节...哈哈..
总的来说，整套戏真的是很好看...
值得我们把时间花在那...哈哈..

明明就是自己懒惰读书...哈哈..
今天本来要温习功课的，下个星期有考试..
结果只温习了半个chapter...然后就出街了..
出街回来就睡觉下，然后跟着我roommate看戏..
书没有温习到..戏就看了3套..还蛮堕落下==

2nd time..

2009-03-27T23:29:00.002+08:00

tis is 2nd time i hv arguement with my roommate...
last time i admited that i did wrong..
but this time...i am clear that the problem is not with me...
she did sth behind me....
but i trust her so much...i believe that she wont do sth that will hurt me...
she lies to me....to cover the things that she did behind me..
but i discover tat she tell lies oso at last...
i dun like ppl lies to me...can lies to me..but dun let me discover it..
it is reali hurt when i knw that the ppl that i trust lies to me...
she did sth like 侵犯my privacy...for me (it is a kind of privacy)..
i reali get hurt....
she scream and shout at me...coz she refuse to explain...
she did apologize...but is apologize for shouting at me...
not apologize for the things that she did behind me...
up to now...i still dunno wat's going on...
and why she did so..
btw...the another guys that involve in the events is the one i appreciate so much..
actuali i dun wish to knw so much oso...
i scare i will get hurt deeply once i knw the truth...
i reali scare of it...
but...izzit better for me to face it?

在森林的经验

2009-03-24T21:18:00.002+08:00

前几天因为学校的课外活动去了森林露营...
the jungle is Hutan Lipur Sungai Bantang, near Segamat..
it is famous with waterfall..air terjun...
i gonna admit that the water in the waterfall is damn cool..
get some fun when playing at the waterfall..
overall..this camping not bad...not as terrible as i imagine..haha
b4 that still scare of 水蛭...还特地去买盐..带埋去...
也买了insect repellent去预防..
结果...那里没有什么蚊子，but got many flies.....
苍蝇真的是多到很够力的那种...
煮东西吃都觉得恶心...还是用河水煮的那种...我们也是在河水洗碗...==
脏到够够力...恶心到要.............
害我现在肚子不是很舒服...我都不敢吃很多了..
我有个朋友还食物中毒去..==
这个真的是jungle trekking + camping...

在jungle trekking的时候，我其实真的很担心我自己不能走完...
因为有了之前的经验..所以就怕怕酱..
还不只我怕..连我的housemate知道我要去到酱远的森林camping都很担心我..
在森林里，我很明显是超weak的那个...
在森林里还有很多人问我要不要特别的照顾...but其实我真的被特别照顾到...
每个人都怕我跌倒...我真的是太千金了...
遇到有攀爬的地方，一定是有人拉着我的手的..
怕上那座山的时候，大家都很关心问我怎样了，需不需要风油之类的..
很明显我真的很喘，很累，脸色苍白...那座山真的很斜下啊..
在过河的时候..没有桥，不过有大大粒的石头，算是满峭壁下..
我就站在原地不懂要怎样过...结果还是有个男的从对面岸走回过来牵着我过河..
我还真的是满weak的...
anyway...这个camping也就酱完了..
through out the whole camping..even tot oni 2 days one night..
but i reali hv to admit that i miss my hostel so much..
and miss my housemates expecially my roommate so much..
once i step into my room and saw my roommate...
the 1st sentence i tell her is "i miss u so much".. hehe

姜还是老的辣

2009-03-08T20:04:00.002+08:00

a 28 years old guy..i reali hv to admit the title as i set above..
tis 28 years old reali geng...i not reali like the style he act..altot his car is bmw..
and yes..it is the bmw that i 1st sit...
but..i not reali 欣赏tis guy...altot he is can be consider as my 救命恩人...
from the incident happened jz nw...
but..hv to admit..he is reali geng...
maybe ..one day..my roommate will drive bmw to campus? ==
i think the probability is quite high...
shh.........................

你可以肯定...

2009-03-07T09:59:00.004+08:00

这几天整个宿舍都安安静静的..
剩下几个人...
昨晚就和仅仅剩下的2个男coursemate and my roommate一起吃晚餐..
像家里吃晚餐酱...感觉还不错..哈哈

吃好回到房间就和我的roommate一起车大炮..
因为在吃饭的时候就有讲到les and guy...
我的两个男coursemate直接问我是不是中过...害我有炸到下..
回到房间我和我roommate继续这个话题..
以下是一些比较..的对话..r -roommate, m- me
r : 你怕我喜欢上你吗？
m: 100%肯定你不会喜欢..肯定到不能再肯定..那你怕我喜欢上你吗？哈哈
r: 我敢肯定你不会喜欢我..but..你肯定你不会喜欢上xx吗？
m: speechless...
r: 你能肯定吗？还是你已经喜欢上了？
m: i gonna admit u reali knw me well..

之后就还有一些更深入的讨论...哈哈..
我其实真的回答不到这个问题...==

我承认

2009-03-03T20:53:00.002+08:00

这几天脾气很暴躁..不懂是不是因为要lai yeh..
还是最近很多事..功课又多...整个人很stress酱...
这个星期整个屋子的人都回到完...因为星期五没课，星期一放假...
我已经很久没有回家了..她们每个又很兴奋的要回家...
有人明天就回家了...只剩下我和我roommate...
我roommate是因为我所以她没有回...
可是我下午因为一点事对她讲话大声点..
我真的很衰.....................................

昨晚还差点不小心和自己一gang的朋友吵嘴...
她的语气也没有好到哪里去....
因为我们作assignment是一组的...昨晚为了assignment的东西吵嘴..
她一直sense不到我在讲什么..我就要一直重复...
重复到我很不耐...所以就火气大...
重点是那个东西又一直做不到我要的那种效果...
火上添油...可怜的她就变成victim..
我就语气很不好的和她讲话...那时真的控制不到自己...
这件事我也没有和别人提起...那时只有我和她在房间而已..
可是今天我就听到一个版本说...我昨晚骂她...
其实有点炸到...因为我不觉得我有骂到她...
结果就有一个结论出来..我是一个不好相处的人...以后谁是我roommate就惨了...
ok...fine...i admit it.....
我承认我要求高..很龟毛...
我承认我是一个不好相处的人..
我承认我是坏人...
我承认我现在很想哭...
我承认我没有用........

1st clubbing experience in jb

2009-03-01T18:02:00.002+08:00

last nite went to clubbing at the zon..i dun reali remember the actual name of the club that i entered...i went thr with my roommate and my next door senior and her bf..
actuali is senior fetched us to thr...she owez go clubbing...
as i enter the club..jz as usual club..got 2 floor..got dance pool..but no ppl dance at dance pool..==
maybe becoz at that time still early..oni 11.30pm..
i drank balcardi apple..not bad..actuali taste good...haha
my senior oso geng..很放with her bf..haha
then after i drink 3 glass of balcardi apple..i start to feel like unstable..sign of mabuk..
bcoz b4 i go,i din eat much cabohydrate food...so will mabuk early..
my roommate got eat sth..so..she is still very bersemangat...
then we get down to the pool and dance..
my roommate reali charming...too many "flies" fly around her..
i reali try my very best to protect her...
that nite we oso got one 护花使者..the friend of my senior..
he reali protect my roommate well...gentle oso..
altot he is close with her, but din pok mong her..
but then..my roommate still pok mong by another guy..
erm..is 从后抱住她的腰...but i fast hand fast leg rampas my roommate back..
me even more charm..the same ppl..pok mong me oso..
now i recall it...reali feel very geli...this is my 1st time pok mong till like tat by guy...
i oni can feel tat my skirt become shorter..and his hand..omg.......damn
at that moment, my roommate oso fast fast rampas me back..
start from then..2 of us reali 跳到很贴身...dun gv others chance to pok mong..
my roommate got many 艳遇...got one amo(white ppl) say he wanna hug my roommate, marry her and dance with her...
when i heard that my roommate and me reali omost faint..他又一直在我们旁边不走..
then my roommate keep on telling him "i'm les"...==swt...
不过那时我们两个真的很暧昧...抱到酱紧来跳..
that amo even try to pull me away wanna dance with her..
but i directly shout at him"hey"..then he apologize to me..==
i reali dunno whr come my courages to shout at him..coz at this type of place..it's not allowed..
luckily he is amo..no gang with him..or else..i dunno wat will going on with me..
after finish clubbing at the zon..we move to next destination continue clubbing..
my roommate and me fetch by 护花使者...his car is BMW..
haha..1st time sit bmw....not bad..
when we reach the next destination..i reali shock..摇头场所来的..
他们很光明正大的磕药...炸到我们傻眼...我们还看着他们吃...==
my roommate and me reali din touch these things..we even din drunk..
but..reali thanks a lot to that 护花使者...他为了我们特地去他朋友包厢开酒...
if we follow senior..her friends all 对my roommate虎视眈眈...几怕他们对她下药...
finally..both of us are safe..coz we follow 护花使者..
but..when we walk out the club..wanna go back ..i suddenly feel 轻飘飘..then FAINT...
还晕倒两次...==结果被护花使者扛上车...
i am not sure why i will be like this..maybe bcoz touch those "things" when in the room..
不小心弄到一点的药粉...回到车上还一直抖到很够力..den drink milk to let it stop..
在hometown clubbing酱久从没发生过这种事...我这次真的是第一次clubbing到这种程度..xia shui 到死...
昨晚真的很多第一次都发生了...
第一次和朋友跳舞到酱贴身..还是my roommate tim...
第一次被pok mong到酱够力..
第一次坐bmw..=)
第一次看着人家磕药..
第一次clubbing之后晕倒..
第一次中药...
第一次在jb clubbing就发生了酱多事..
我是不可能再在jb clubbing了..
我想这辈子我是不会忘记这晚和我的roommate...

motorbike

2009-02-28T08:22:00.003+08:00

yesterday my roommate use motorbike to fetch me back from faculty..xD
this is reali 1st time i fetched by friends by motorbike...
my roommate drving motorbike skill oso nice...很有安全感..==
after the last class, we discuss about the coursework with our group members.. 2 male coursemates..one of them is chasing my roommate start from last sem..
reali hv to admit that my roommate is very charming...
then after finish discussing..my roommate ask me dare to sit her motorbike or not...
i say sure ok..how nice no nid to wait for bus...
automatically..she minta the motorbike's key from the one who admire her..
coz..he own a motorbike..
so..both of us drive back to hostel by motorbike..then the 2 pity guys walk back to the hostel..
how pity they are...xD
actuali they go back by bus oso...but hv to walk to bus station...haha
nice experience..fetch by my lovely roommate using motorbike..=)

fac night

2009-02-22T15:17:00.003+08:00

jz come back from my fac nite...
this is my 1st fac nite in utm...of coz la..1st year oni..
the dinner organized in a golf resort lo...so we stay overnite at the hotel..
tis morning oni back...
整体来讲，整个fac nite的感觉超棒的....每个都很好看...
大家都对我另眼相看，很sharp...哈哈
我还挤进我们的course最引人注目的前三名...xD
b4 fac nite,我就一直在很烦恼...身材不够人家好，脸也被比下去..根本就不够看..
所以..最后..我引人注目的地方回到我的发型....哈哈哈哈..
我是全场发型最sharp的一个....哈哈哈哈..
我发现很多场合，我的发型真的很重要..不管我穿扮girl还是boy..我弄的发型从来都是最引人注目的部分..大家都会讲的就是..“你的发型很好看啊..”
我只是花了RM30 set了一个鸡冠头回来..but..这个鸡冠头和别人的没有两样..
我头发不长，可是set这个发型却给别人一种长头发的感觉...
重点就是，他set的方法真的真的真的很配我的脸和衣...
昨晚，所有认识我的人看到我的反应都是
"真的是你吗？！很不一样咧..很美哦.." =)
所以...整个fac nite..我一直在做的事就是拍照..可是照片都在别人的相机里面..
很多人一直抓住我拍照..还说以后没有机会和酱的我拍照了..哈哈
我承认，我昨晚真的很不一样..我roommate讲说如果她没有看到我make up，试衣的过程她也认不出是我...xD
我也有化妆，不过只化了烟熏装..其他的都是nature...不过，被很多人说过"你口红颜色很美咧..你的粉底很适合你...腮红打到很均匀..."
只是我真的没有用好那些东西...只是有用lip care + lip gloss oni..没有用口红..
脸的颜色都是nature的...怎么可能不均匀..haha..
我最sharp的就是发型和烟熏装..服装应该是全场最多布的一个..哈哈 ..
but..真的和平常的我不一样..这是肯定的..我会set头发化妆就豫jor会有人认不出我..

我roommate也是其中引人注目的一个..这是一定的嘛..
她和我一样，把装注重在眼睛..她的假睫毛好sharp...为她整张脸加分很多...
很多人包括我都觉得，全场她的脸是最好看的..
不愧是roommate..我全场最sharp..她的脸全场最美..xD
她的群有短下...哈哈..不过那个不是最sharp的部分..因为有人的裙比她更短..

那个裙比她更短的人就是那个最引人注目的那只sexy baby..
she is one of the candidate for fac queen...不简单下咯..
她的晚装真的是会让人流鼻血..我们看了都觉得很够力下..身材好到...
昨晚她化的装也是好看下..整体很不错..
虽然到最后她没有被选中fac queen..不过能进3甲真的很不错了...
她其实也还好，和平常的她不会差别很大..有料就是酱..
小小声讲..昨晚在酒店房间我抱着她睡整晚...哈哈哈哈..

眼泪笑了

2009-02-18T14:20:00.002+08:00

比想象中更痛你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着找回光和热
面对你的时候我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折
是美的

你眼泪都笑了谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾因为我已爱过你
深深的
心碎成了沙漠就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

this song is sing by 刘力扬...
i get this song from my 'lengzai'....
now this song is keep on repeating at my laptop...
last nite...i heard sth reali surprising..maybe shock is more suitable..
我怎么想都想不到原来她是酱的......
我那时真的整个很炸到...有心痛...我真的真的真的对她很失望...
我有点接受不到这个东西...心目中的完美形象完全破灭到完...
男主角是我的coursemate..现在在追着她的好朋友也是我的朋友...
被追着的朋友完全不知道这回事...还问我关于那男子...
我不知道要怎么面对这种局面..

changing in me

2009-02-17T19:50:00.002+08:00

这个sem..很多很多很多很多很多很多很多人都说我变了
其实，不用别人说，我自己都酱觉得...
变太多了...我自己都有点吓倒...
有变好也有变坏...哈哈..这是一定的嘛...
我自己觉得的改变就是，有点堕落了...上课没有酱注意听..
assignment, test, quiz都是last minute才准备..
上个sem这种东西很少发生在我身上...没有酱懒惰==
我真的很怕这个sem的final...

他们所谓的变好就是变开朗了...xD
比较玩得开...比较常见到笑容...脾气比较好..耐心多了点..
这个改变是大家都认同的..连男子coursemate都酱说..
大家都说我被我roommate影响了..哈哈..
这证明before that 我是多么的糟糕...哈哈
其实根本就是变到比较爱玩所以变懒了..

很快二月就要完了...接下来的3月和4月应该就是很很很痛苦的时候了..
4月尾final..3月一定是全部assignments, projects要submit + present..
然后这个sem就酱结束了...
下个sem..就要换宿舍房间了...换roommate...housemate..
其实我真的会舍不得我的housemate..

kp nite

2009-02-16T21:39:00.002+08:00

昨晚是kp nite..kp是我住的宿舍咯....
kp nite 就是全部residents of the hostel nid to participate的一个节目
the theme is malam etnik creative...every girl wear baju kurung or congsam..
guess wat i wear to join the dinner?
jeans, sport shoes, 白衬衫，加vest..
我的vest很有型下的咯，哈哈..别人跟我讲的...
就也有两个男子都穿差不多类似的style...
but...我穿到最有型下...哈哈...也是别人讲的哦...xD
昨晚我一gang的女子都化妆去...除了我和另一个来不及化..7.30pm进场..
不过不要紧，我没化妆都被问别人问“是不是有化妆？"...xD
爽到我...一整晚很high...==
结果那晚差不多到11点菜才上座...==
又超级少+ 难吃的那种...马来餐没办法...
but..我们很enjoy一直拍照...我整个晚上嘴巴没有停过..==
从这一桌讲去另一桌...自己原本的座位都很少待....
结果我和我那一gang就拍到比较少照片...被她们酸到够力下...
我承认是我自己衰下咯...有点忽略了自己的gang...
but..昨晚我很enjoy...xD

昨晚我的roommate没有Join这个节目
因为她回Hometown...
今天早上回来看到她的照片真的有点惊讶...
原来我的roommate真的很美...化妆之后更美...
真的是突然发现到的那种..
下个星期六就是fac nite 了...
这个nite大家都很注重...为了它下了很多功夫...
除了我.............连衣服都没有着落..==
我很期待我roommate那天晚上的打扮...分分钟fac queen和我住同一间房=)..

valentine day 2009

2009-02-14T09:24:00.002+08:00

today is 14/2/2009...
the one who accompany me sharp at 12am 14/2/2009 is xiao bai..my laptop..haha
but in my housemates's room..help her to finish her assignment...==
maybe later will go out shopping...search for the stuff needed for fac nite
last nite i slept at 4am..tis morning 8am..wake up by sumone..
suddenly ask me to do sth...

now wanna sleep..but many things not yet done...
i hate a lots of assignments come at a time...
maybe the valentine day will celebrate with the assignments..
pity......................lolz..

mid term test + 新春

2009-02-08T10:17:00.003+08:00

finally finish the mid term test for 2 subjects....
still left 2 more subjects to be exterminated...
one subject test on next thur.. next will be on next next sat...
the test on fri nite is still ok...but still make some silly mistakes...
i saw the mistake d...thinking of changing the ans oso..
but din change it at the end...how silly am i...==
but..compare to the test on sat..i think the test on fri is much more better....
the test on sat reali is kns...wait to fail oni....
the essay part 40 marks..totally dunno how to answer...
reali no eye c d.....the whole class has the same situation..maybe will resit the test..==
hope the next 2 subjects wont be so terrible...

last nite went to the 新春activities organized by chinese organization in U..
not bad...the program quite nice actuali..
i like 醒狮，break dance and hip hop dance...
the break dance reali not bad actuali...but i prefer hip hop dance more...popping..
tat hip hop dance uses the songs owez plays in disco...
their performance reali take very long time...the songs n dancers keep on changing...
wat i like the most is the micheal jackson dance..4 dancers..
one of the dancers is GIRL!!!..but she still able to dance very nice...
in my opinion..the other 3 male dancers even din dance as great as her..
she is reali reali reali very yao yin ah.......hou ye...cool till bao....
i scare i will fall in love toward her if i saw her performance more...
actuali not oni i think so..all my gang think in this way... :p
another girl dancer is very nice oso...很会扭...expecially when she make S style..
my male coursemate in front of me reali 'hot' till nid cool water to calm dawn..xD
that dancer very small in size..look young..around 15 oni..but..very pretty le...
人美，舞又跳得好..好得来又带点骚味...要跳到酱不简单呱...
no wonder my coursemate will 'hot' till like tis..haha
during this hip hop dance performance..i am quite high oso..keep on shouting..==
but not oni me la..my roommate oso like tis..haha..

february 2009

2009-02-06T08:33:00.002+08:00

February 2009 will be a very busy month for me...
a lot of assignments nid to submit...a lot of tests and exam are waiting for me...
after mid term break owez will busy like hell...
this month will be seriously lack of sleeping... :(
worry that reali will become a big panda...like 团团圆圆...放着给人欣赏..==
tonite will hv a mid term exam for one subject...
tomoro morning will hv another exam for another subject...==
the exam for tonite not yet finish study..but oni left a liitle bit stuff..
reali worry about the exam for tomoro...still left 2 chapters...
this subject is my major course le..software engineering...==
but it is reali damn boring....a lot theories nid to memorise...
will fall asleep if keep on reading the slide show for this subject...
GOd, i need u..plz be with me..gv me wisdom and luck.. =)
Good luck for me and all my coursemates..

b4 back to johor

2009-01-31T15:48:00.002+08:00

tmr i will back to my university in johor..
quite late ady actuali..
some friends now oledi in the hostel..lolz..
now i am still at ipoh..
tis few days when my friends sms or call me, the 1st sentence is "whr r u now?"
lolz..funny lo..even my mum oso ask so...
suddenly will change to other places...
ipoh quite nice oso..food very nice...
the na chui gai..(芽菜鸡)..
jz normal chicken rice but got na chui jek...lolz..but nice oso..altot masin a bit..
i like the wan dan ho at taiping...xD
at taiping got c one lengzai at taiping sentral shopping mall..reali very lengzai..
sg petani and alor star dun impressed me so much..
coz when i went thr is the 1st and 2nd day of cny..all shops close d lo..
saw many "the store" at the town of sg petani...
not bad oso my 1st cny at west msia..xD

my hometown become 威尼斯 d..flood..quite serious...
my friends gv me c the photos..
luckily i din go back..or else dunno how to back to johor..

gonna prepare to study again lo..
start my busy U life again..
hope everything getting on well..=)

不一样的新年

2009-01-28T20:44:00.002+08:00

今年2009的新年真的与众不同…
我去了ipoh, Kampar, taiping, sg petani and alor star
其实本来的plan是也去埋penang…
可惜，最后都还是去不成..因为朋友突然不能去
不过也算了啦，我都去了酱多地方

这个新年有个人弄到大家都很gek ki..
这个人就是我的cousin..从sibu来到kampar读书
我在ipoh的亲戚是我姑姑，那个惹人厌的cousin是我ipoh姑姑的姐姐的儿子..
真的是够力目中无人..他读account的
敢敢讲全部科目读了出来都没有用...只有account最有用...beh tong这种人..
他讲得出这种话，就预Jor他会得罪很多人..就连我ipoh的亲戚都很显他的咯其实...
anyway..还好他初一就回sibu了...不过初五又回来了咯...
我也不清楚我几时回jb...
算了，这个新年我去了酱多地方也是好的咯...=)

ipoh...

2009-01-22T01:33:00.002+08:00

now is 22/1/2009 1.35am
i not yet sleep..altot tomoro morning hv to wake up early in the morning..
tomoro 7.30am will depart from my hostel to ipoh..
tis year i will go to ipoh to celebrate my cny..
a lot of tutorial, assignments oso want to celebrate cny with me..
so as the mid-term test..
i dunno how much i can do during cny..
i hope i can celebrate my 1st cny which out of my hometown happily..
shinneh omedetou gozaimasu..happy cny..=)

yesterday..complicated mood

2009-01-10T11:32:00.002+08:00

yesterday i went to jpj to settle the saman thing..
i tot can appeal to hv a discount..
who knws the officer at jpj say stirctly..
"jpj never gv discount for saman, if wan to appeal nid appeal at court.."
when hear the word "court" reali shock n speechless..
only 2 ways to settle the saman..straight away pay RM300 within tis month..
or else attend the court on march..
i reali prefer the 1st way..straight away pay RM300..
take it as an expensive lesson..
but one of my friend say she is not willing to pay RM300..not worth to do so..
want to attend the court..i reali shock..
now finding the way to presuade her...

yesterday went to play badminton oso..
but i din reali play...coz..my court been rampas by "babi"..
at tat time reali very upset..how come i'd book the court..but bcoz of mistake of the worker then i hv to lend my court to the "babi"..cause i hv no place to play..
but...i am not tat unlucky oso la..my "lengzai" suddenly appear in front of me...xD
reali happy at the moment i saw her...coz i reali long time din meet with her after the holiday..
when i argue with the worker she help me oso..haha..
after tat she din play with her friend.choose to accompany me..haha..
我真的很佩服她..是下一届中秋园游会的主席..又是iem的ajk..
羽球打得很厉害，乒乓也很厉害..她还教我打乒乓tim...
真的有型到爆..
还有就是...昨天她知道我的saman的事..跟我说
“i am not rich..but i still can afford ur saman..if u r not ok, u jz tell me, dun be shy with tis..tat's wat friend mean.." i reali get touched with her word...reali..truely..

昨天我真的觉得很自卑...i reali look down of myself..
not like somone else..learn thing easily...
舞跳得好，球打得好，学东西很快，身材又好...
why i dun hv even one skill...i lose all...

my mood

2009-01-08T23:54:00.002+08:00

yesterday one of my lecturer suddenly give the replacement class at night for 29 dec 2008..
that was a public holiday but that lecturer too hardworking..
even the class for public holiday oso nid to be replaced..
after back from the replacement class, it was 10pm oledi..
more terrible thing is, the lecturer gv some tasks at tat night but nid to be submited on the next day...== reali shock when heard tis..
then burn midnight oil to complete the tasks...no choice oso..
summore hv to help other friends to settle the related problems oso..
fortunately..today, all of us completed the tasks..thanks God..
actuali i a bit worry for my study tis sem...attend the class for 2 weeks ady..
but dun reali understand the lesson of lecturer..==
hope God can help me in understanding the lesson...

now..i jz come back from the care group of the church..
i get a new bear's pulm...xD..i reali like it so much..
actuali the bear's pulm is not belong to me..is belong to a brother named Simon..
the bear's pulm is one of the tools for the drama...
but i reali like it so much..keep on telling others ,"i like tat bear's pulm, i want it..i want it.."..xD.. quite a lot of ppl shock with my action..coz me got a bit like 撒娇...not suit my style..haha..
truthly..i oso dunno why i like it so much, at the moment i wear it, reali hard for me to take it off ady...i reali omost forget tis kind of feeling...i din like sth so much for a long time ady..
finally..the owner can't stand on me...give it to me as a gift...hahahaha..

roommate..

2009-01-03T19:51:00.002+08:00

话说前几天在底楼的走廊里看到枕头和boster..
结果我roommate就讲谁酱可怜被roommate赶出来，要睡在走廊..
那时我们听了还笑到腰弯去..
结果...
我今天被自己的roommate赶了两次出去..==
第一次，她冲好凉进来，我刚好要出去洗杯子...
她就笑笑的讲“你出去，我要换衣服.."
然后我嘛假假很可怜被roommate赶出去的走出房间..
其实也没有什么介意啦...因为我本来就要出去...
第二次，她要换衣出街...那时我开着门站在门口和朋友讲话...
突然听到她讲"Bobo,出去!"
整个被吓到傻...连我朋友都被吓倒...以为我们吵架..
然后我roommate自己就在那里笑到半死，因为她本来是要我关门，结果讲成出去..
就酱被roommate赶了两次出去...
我还问她，楼下那个枕头和boster是不是她准备给我因为她会赶我出去...哈哈..
my cute roommate...xD

昨天被人放飞机...
心里不是很爽...

01012009

2009-01-02T11:00:00.002+08:00

这一天真的超难忘的...
中saman不只...回到大学要报名给外语课程..又花了RM200...
atm card 还被blocked...因为enter 3 times wrong password..
pay again RM12 to replace the card...==
这个一月一号真的...我找不到形容词来形容了..
其他朋友好像也不太顺利...

but..think posetively...
因为我丢了这些钱拿去喂猪..
以后就要省省的过...也可以吃得健康点...=)

new year 2009

2009-01-01T08:02:00.003+08:00

today is the 1st day of 2009...endof 2008, begining of 2009..
last nite, new year eve..go out to countdown with coursemates at dangabay( beach)..
terrible traffic congestion on the road to danga bay...
danga bay is reali full with ppl...ppl moutain ppl sea...
sharp at 12am...fire work played on the sky...
very beautiful fire work...
after tat change destination...wan to go clubbing...
on the way to the clubbing place..the car blocked by jpj...
we sit at the back din wear tali keledah...then all sit at the back get SAMAN..
reali a big angpau for tis year....
dunno wat should say...
tat damn jpj jz pass 12am so fast catch ppl...
this new rule reali dilaksanakan sharp on 1/1/2009...==
b4 oso din c them so hardworking to do th work...
max dendadn will be RM300 ah.....omg...
totally damage the mood to go clubbing...
then go to yam cha...actuali wan to save money to pay for the saman oso...
hv to spend 5 hours at the yam cha place...coz after 12am cannot enter U campus ady..
if not , student card will be scanned and the warning letter will be sent to parent if student card scanned for 3 times..
since our luck not so good..we dun wan to take this risk..
finally...back to U at 6.30am...
now attending the class with sleepy eyes...
now is 8.30am..

back to U..xD

2008-12-30T16:22:00.002+08:00

i back to university on 28/12/2008...
the plane landing at senai airport at 5.45pm...
then take taxi with my friends in order to go back to the hostel...
i reali wonder why the taxi driver use highway..the longer distance...
b4 i go to senai airport from my hostel oni nid around 15 or 20 min...
tat time the taxi driver use omost one hour oni reach the hostel...==
but is he rugi oso...coz the taxi fee is fixed..haha
after back to hostel...problem come...no key to enter...the office close ady...so yam gong...
hv to borrow the pail n other daily use things from friends..even no slipper to wear..
no pillow n bed to sleep...hv to sqeeze myself to share bed with friend...

on the next day, fast fast get the key from office...
then my roommate oso come back at tat time...
fast fast clean the room...use 2 hours to clean the room..
after tat my roommate cook or maybe can say is boil maggie mee for both of us..xD
then take bath n wash clothes..then then then..
go to jb for shopping!!!!
reach city square at 2pm...start crazy shopping with friends...
but i din buy anything at the end..== waste too many time inside the fiiting room to try the clothes...hahahaha..
oso waste many time for waiting the bus to drive la..omost half n hour..
10pm oni back to hostel...very tired..but happy oso...

today is the 1st day of the new sem...one lect din come...haha..

update下

2008-11-29T16:09:00.002+08:00

hehe...jz knw about my result for my final exam....
not bad lo...got 3 subjects A-, 2 subjects A and one subject A+....
haha..quite a good result ady actuali...altot is not 4.0..
but is much more better than my result b4...actuali din get such a good result b4..even A- oso very difficult to score in stpm...hehe..
thanks God for the result...=)

recently i can't on9 so often...coz the 2 brothers at home everyday use the line to play thier game..haiz...sienz oni...cannot on9....
then i very busy shopping lo...haha..altot dun hv a very big harvest..
but i enjoy the feeling of staying outside instead of stay at home...
i reali feel alive when my body is at sumwhr else outside rather than at home...xD

still hv one month to go then oni can back to utm..
i hope the time can pass faster...==

old friends~

2008-11-23T19:53:00.002+08:00

last nite meet and gathered with my old friends...actuali is classmates at form 6..
the feeling reali triple good......i enjoy the gathering so much..
my dry sis back from um oso..mostly from utm and um..oni got one from ums..
the head prefect..haha..i reali quite shock at the moment i saw him...
hair grow longer...slim up till i omost can't recognize him...
seem tat everyone facing the increasing weight after leave hometown n enter U...haha..
but my dry sis looks slim down a bit..maybe KL too many shopping complex..busy shopping till lose weight ki...haha
i oso the one in the slim up group..i still remember the day i back to my house..
the respon of my mum when c me..."omg...how come u getting so fat.." i can hear my heart broken at tat time....==

back to the gathering last nite...last nite..i oni feel tat i am still alive..
still hv feeling...still will feel happy..knw how to laugh...haha
chit chating with old friends...share all the things happened in diffrent U..
enjoy so much...finish one round...my dry sis n me change place n continue for 2nd round..haha..
quite weird oso..coz many shops closed so early...
even the food court oso close at 11pm...shock ki...
anyway...can meet with old friends reali is a good thing...xD

在家的日子

2008-11-19T14:55:00.002+08:00

回到家已经5天了，开始显到没有话讲....
每天不是看戏就是睡觉...
显到我要疯了...
又不能常常on9...因为老大在家...
也不能太常出街...因为老大在家...
就刚刚罢了，老大驾车出街被人撞了咯..
现在更惨咯，每个人抢一辆车...
现在只希望我朋友们快快回来载我去gai gai...haha...

刚看完“与敌同行”这套戏..
不错看咯...只是不赞成郑嘉颖利用kelly来拿到证据...
酱紫利用人家的感情来达到自己的目的很hurt被利用的那个人嘛
那个被利用的人真的很可怜，很有可能因为酱紫她会从此不再相信爱情也说不定..
会留下很严重的后遗症的咯如果那个人想不开...
接下来不懂要看什么戏...一堆戏等着我看..可是都没什么心情要看...==

Final over~

2008-11-13T23:46:00.002+08:00

终于终于考完我第一个sem的final exam了
其实昨天就考完了，不过昨晚太忙...忙着和coursemates庆祝finiash final...哈哈
steamboat till stomach reali full till beh tahan...
差不多12点酱回到宿舍，本来就打算上网update blog了，不过那时不能on9..所以就算了...
到今晚才得空update..hehe...
昨晚没有On9所以就跑到朋友房间去看戏...
结果朋友她们全部睡着去，只剩我一个在看..因为我是唯一一个算是不太严重缺乏睡眠的..
其他人都只睡1小时酱..我睡5粒钟算是很幸福了..haha..
话说，昨晚我差点流鼻血...不是被人打，不是太热...是看到太撩情的画面...==
看戏就看到dancer or sexy dancer在disco嘎舞...
然后就有个朋友说其实她也会...那时其他人都睡了...
我嘛不相信咯，虽然她说她有舞蹈的底，可是不相信她会跳这种蒲咖的舞
然后她就跳给我看...walao....我整个吓到傻...真的是超够力性感+风骚了的咯..
她身材又超好的那种，她身体的柔软度也是又超好，扭起来真的是...sexy babe~
虽然以前在disco也有看过别人跳，不过都觉得还好，看自己会认识的朋友跳也没有很特别的感觉..虽然她们也是做着差不多一样的动作..可是感觉就是很不一样..
她那时也只是穿着普通t-shirt + short paint oni...not hot paint sumore..
如果我是男的，看到这个搞不好会有生理反应...=.=
还好她不敢在别人面前跳，不然她会很危险..男子都不懂要贡献几多桶鼻血了..xD
我有这个荣幸看到真的是...上辈子修来的..哈哈...

我明天要回家了咯，一个sem就酱过了
我应该会想念这里的朋友咯..尤其是我的housemates...and that sexy babe..xD

NEVER give up! Fight till the end~

2008-11-11T16:19:00.002+08:00

finally....finally...finally....finally...........

tomoro is my last paper ~ yeah~

tomoro 5.30pm finally finish my final exam for my 1st year 1st sem in utm..

the last paper must score good good...coz i lost 10 mark for the carry mark in this subject oledi..must work hard to fight for the 10 marks i lost...

about the IT paper for today...is omost the same with the tips i get...haha..xD..

last nite i am the oni one who sleep most early n long time...

some of my coursemates even dun sleep for the whole nite...

coz many things nid to memorise...my roommate oni sleep for half an hour...

at the time i went to bed..i saw she was studying..at the moment i open my eye.. she is still studying in front of her table..=.=

for this IT subject..i knw nid to memorise many stuff..so i read through all the chapter during study week...oni read through din memorise oni..at least got idea for the stuff..

last nite oni try to memorise...but i sleep at 12am..then wake up at 5am n study again...

1st time heard the bird "singing" early in the morning at here...haha..

anyway...gv thanks to God coz i get the tips early..

now hv to work hard n prepare for the paper tomoro...

Gambateh~dun ever try to give up...must fight till the end...

+ u + u~

考试不顺利

2008-11-07T19:53:00.004+08:00

今天考试真的不是很顺利...考数学...
本来应该是我的强项来的..test 1 can score 98/100..
but for this final exam............
我真的很没有信心...
今天早上起来竟然肚子痛!!..还cirit-birit tim...omg..
在考场也是这种痛苦的状况...
去了一次的厕所..另一次忍住...=.=
真的是够力到我无言...
那个题目又不容易下涡..
做好我还自己大概算下分数..will lose max 30 marks...argh..
有一题真的是够力..10 marks..totally dun understand the question..
根本就不知道题目要什么...=.=
再加埋其他不确定和不会做的..丢分真的是丢到够力...

but..刚才看了另一个subject的carry mark 才没有酱担心...
i score 65.8 over 70..=)
that's mean i nid to score another 20% for final exam to get A+...
i nid to score at least 67 marks for final exam over 100 marks..
must work hard hard to cover the marks i lose in maths...
or else will be hard for me to enter 1st class...
+ u + u + u..
3 more papers ~

finish final exam for 2 subjects

2008-11-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

today finally finish the 2 subject which contribute only 2 credit hours...
but these 2 common subject reali omost drive all of us crazy...
english is still ok..but another one subject call hubungan etnik..
it is in BM...all related to politic, islam, bla bla bla...
reali damn boring...we were damn suffer yesterday when we were prepared for the exam..
not yet study one page ady fall asleep..
my roommate n me very funny..keep on 打瞌睡...
then sleep a while n wake up..these few actions keep on repeating...
damn suffer...wanna sleep oso cannot..the book s reali boring like hell..
a very good material to let ppl fall asleep..
next time kena insomia can read the book so tat can sleep well...=.=
today tis exam paper..nid to write 2 long essay from 5 questions..
among the 5 questions i oni know how to answer one question..
another one reali is simply write...i oso dunno wat i'd wrote for that question..==
forget about it...gonna prepare for next paper..maths..=)
now omost 12am ady..i oledi finish study..prepare to sleep...haha
hope everything going on well tomoro..good luck to me~

i reali hope tat the final exam will be finish soon...
we'd plan some activities after exam...reali can't wait the day to come..
haha...after this will seprate with them for omost 2 months...
they r such a good gang and i appreciate all of them..

昨晚

2008-10-31T09:04:00.002+08:00

昨晚我的情绪起伏很大下....
先是不小心得罪到某个housemate....
不是谁的错，到后来我才发现原来是因为当我看到那字的反应弄到她很伤心...
我笑到很够力大声....=.=衰到...zomok我酱衰的?!
but 我真的不知道她酱care这个东西的嘛...
她的roommate还跟我说好像她有掉眼泪...=.=
可是昨晚我还很厚脸皮的在她房间stay overnight...
因为我房间有bee....明明我房间就没有honey....
吓倒我够够力，真的是...zomok酱多bee的最近..
连男子的block那里也是酱...

b4我进她房间就有在自己房间聊了两粒钟的电话...哈哈
guess who was talking on phone with me? xD
at the moment i end the call...the happiness in my heart is undescribeable :D
本来只是要麻烦她帮我买东西而已
but最后就聊聊下，不知不觉聊了酱久...
我真的挖到很多料啊...很多都出乎我预料之外的...
原来她几多人追下，even他们都知道她有bf的了...同性的也有tim...嘻嘻..
不错不错，果然是她自己的魅力....哈哈..

taylor swift- tear drop on my guitar
最近这里很多人喜欢听这首歌，可能因为这首歌好听
but..给我来看..这首歌很touch my heart......
i can't even see anyone when he's with me... =)

hate

2008-10-29T14:58:00.002+08:00

i hate myself now...
i hate myself for being lazy..
so lazy ..wasting time oni...reali can't concentrate on my revision..
i hate tis!! i hate tis!
i want to study! Come on!!
next week start final exam..whr is my heart??!
i hate myself for being so stupid...
oledi knw it's impossible but can't let myself out from that condition..
Hate Hate Hate Hate............

now love tis song so much..
Simple Plan- Your love is just a lie.

觉悟。清醒

2008-10-27T23:43:00.005+08:00

是时候要让自己清醒了...
终于知道你对每个人都好，都很好的那种..
而我只是其中一个朋友让你对我好...
反之你还深深爱着另一个人，忠诚不二的那种..
不应该再让自己有错觉...
一开始自己都清楚地知道这是一个错误..
却笨笨傻傻的陷下去...
你是好人，大好人...
这是事实，我必须要接受的事实..
你知道我朋友在传什么，你不介意还告诉我别因为她们而生气
酱的好人，哪里找？
从现在开始，我要学着把你当着好人，就是这么一个大好人而已..
没有其他错觉，彻底让感觉消失...
在我心里的你要死去，别再霸着那个位，好吗？(who i'm talking to?)==

在一起错，分开了也错，没有做完的梦最错....
Jay chow-说好的幸福呢？

stomach full...

2008-10-27T10:05:00.002+08:00

this is the 2nd time my stomach was so full until cannot sleep..
b4 was caused by french fried..
this time is because i was so ham fuk..xD
last nite i hv my dinner at 7.30pm...one chicken chop rice and one ais kacang..
suddenly reliaze that my stomach can put a lot of food..although i dun finish eating both of them..==
at the time back to my room..i reali feel that it was so full...
then took out my laptop and sign in msn..started chit chating with friends..
around 10pm, one of my church's friend called me and ask whr am i now...she wanna take sth to me...
when she gv me the thing...i reali wanna faint...is a bowl of red bean soup~~
actuali red bean soup is my favourite...but it come at not suitbale time..
nvm...i reali cherish it..since it bought by my church's friend...
then my roommate back from dating...she bring back roti canai for me..since i like roti canai..==
then...........my coursemate ask me to go down take sth...
again the sth is a food...6 donuts from BIG APPLE...xD
my favourite oso le wei....
suddenly many favourites food appear in front of me as i was not hungry...
but i reali apperciate them...very touching oso...
lastly, i shared all the foods with my housemates...
at the time we finished all the food, it was 12.30am oledi...
then i directly go to sleep after brushing my teeth..coz scare pimples will come out n say hi to me on the next day...=.=
undoubtly..sure i will getting fatter in this way of eating...
b4 oso very hardworking went for supper tim..
so, last nite make a decision with my roommate..
No supper, No Spicy food, No snack, No refreshment start from today..
must control myself...or else my mum can't recognize me at the air port at the time i back to my hometown...=.=

busy weeks..but..give thanks to God..

2008-10-18T19:08:00.003+08:00

this recent weeks are my busy weeks...
a lots of assignments, projects, presentation, lab, tests and quizes are waiting for me..
it seems like many things nid to be settled down before come to study week..
nid to prepare for final exam sumore...
yesterday i accidentaly attended a very useless class(for me) because of heavy rain..
actuali i wan to back to my hostel after i finish my class at 11am..
but my group members said wan go to find the lecturer discuss our project..
then went to find lecturer..and edit our website project to meet lecturer's need..
we finished editing at 2pm..the useless class started at 3pm..
actuali i stil wan to go back if there is no raining..but i forced to attend the class at last..
when the class finished, the lecturer said he will deduct 30 marks for those din attend the class since it was the last class for this sem (b4 we dunno about tis) and many ppl din attend the class..maybe is bcoz of the heavy rain..
Praise God to gv the heavy rain, dun gv me back to hostel..
or else my 30 marks will jz simply fly away...

a few days b4..my laptop fall down to the floor in the class...=.=
"ping pang" sound was so loud until whole class keep quiet n look at me..
i oso shocked till cannot gv the respon..
lecturer even ask me"Bonnie, are u ok?"
i picked my laptop up..dun dare to turn it on...i pray n pray..
i pray to God to protect my laptop..i pray very hard..
until i back to my hostel..i still dun dare to turn it on..i am very scare...
b4 i turn it on in my room, i pray again..
then i turn it on..Praise God!! it is OK..same as b4..
God is reali very amazing n powerful..He creates miracle for me again..
reali hv to gv thanks to God..
~God Love me and you~

饱...

2008-10-12T12:43:00.002+08:00

昨晚第一次肚子饱到想呕，站也不是，坐也不是...
肚子撑到要爆炸酱...想怀孕3个月了..
晚上7点吃晚餐，吃到一半收到sms..要我们8点去帮忙hari raya celebration..
wear baju kurung tim...
摸下摸下, 8.30pm oni reach the destination..
到那边问阿头，她说你们现在才来，都不用做事了，就坐着凑人数好了..
嘛就坐下来咯...听一些人演讲下，其实根本没有听..讲话就有..
然后9点，叫我们去吃马来糕点...很多种糕点嘛一个一个try下味道..
try到完...肚子已经很够力饱了..然后走回宿舍..
回到宿舍才知道我们的朋友买了很多McD薯条和kfc马铃薯在等我们..
感谢我们帮她庆祝生日....
人家盛意拳拳...不好意思拒绝...所以大家都拿了一盒薯条和马铃薯回房间慢慢啃...
最后...没有人吃得完...可是又不好意思丢掉，怎样都是人家的一番好意...
结果把全部食物放一起..在我房间玩猜拳...输的人吃1条薯条和一块马铃薯..
我是第二倒霉鬼，还好不是第一个..猜拳猜几下觉得酱很慢才能吃完..换抽签..
有号码1，2，3，4，5，6...抽到什么号码就要吃多少薯条...
还好玩猜拳一直输的两个在抽签时运气回来了, 只拿到前3个号码..
我roommate就衰一点，一直拿到5和6...吃到她傻...
好不容易终于解决了所有食物..全部人去泡凉茶喝..怕死会生pimple...
差不多1点我去刷牙洗脸准备睡觉，照下镜子赫然发现我脸上有pimple...
吓死我...在那边乱叫...怎么会酱快...肚子都还没消化完，脸已经有pimple了...
以后都不敢吃薯条了啦...饱到很恐怖..=.=

KL

2008-09-29T15:02:00.002+08:00

come to KL 3 days oledi...
the 1st day i arrived KL..reali a bit troublesome..
firstly is the bus..the bus express i took from johor suppose to reach pudu..
but it stopped at bukit jalil..coz pudu jam like hell, bus cannot go in thr..=.=
i totally no idea whr should i go after i reach bukit jalil..same as my friend who come with me..
then we saw a bus go to pudu..so we take the bus..
but..at the moment i board the bus..my aunty call me..i suppose to use lrt to pudu..
use bus to pudu oso facing traffic congestion...no choice other than be patient n wait..
after i reached pudu..nid take lrt..i omost faint at the moment i heard my friend say she dunno whr is the lrt station...
y i will come together with her is jz bcoz she know how to go to kj..
or else i sure take bus together with another friend who is more close to me...
i tot she know how to take lrt to go the destination...that's mean she was telling lie to me b4..
at last i am the one who found out whr is the lrt station..=.=
but but..again she guide wrongly..we should took lrt to pasar seni..but she guide me to majid jamek (dun sure the spelling)..then turn lrt to kj...waste $$ and time oni..
finally...i meet with my aunty at 1.30pm..
my bus reach KL at 11.30am...i waste 2 hours to do such silly and useless things..

my aunty bought me for a car ride around pj and KL on that night...
went to bangsar...reali full with entertainment shop...many clubs, pubs, eating place..
pass by many places..but i oni remember the 2 impressed places..mid valley n sunway piramid...
went for sunday service at mcc church..finish service at 10.30am..
then accompany my 2 small small cousin who is oni 4 n 3 years old go to sunday sku..
this is 1st time i accompany kids to sunday sku..even dun acc my youngest brother to sunday sku at my hometown...lolz...
but..sth impressed is i saw the naive and innoence of children...the things which i lost...
KL kids all speak english, my 2 cousins oso same...
hv to speak english to them..although they can understand mandarin, they jz dun wan to talk in mandrian...quite a sad things for chinese...

after this went for lunch at pak li cafe..i like mee mamak at thr..^^
then went for shopping at the curve and tesco near the curve..
actuali wanna go to 1u oso..but our legs complain strongly..
my leg reali feel of wanna broken down after finish shopping this 2 places..
jz look around at the ikea furnitures in the curve oledi make me exhausted...
back to home n sleep tightly...haha...
went to the shortest pasar malam at pj after hving dinner at one of the kopitiam around..
the maur taufu here not spicy wor compare to johor's..dunnno is the result after i undergo thr spicy training in johor for a few months..i reali feel that it is not very spicy..but my aunty say quite spicy..
should i feel happy for tis? lolz...
go through pasar malam..the snakes at thr make me shocked...
go one uncle perform how to catch snakes or wat i oso dunno...
i oni focus on the snakes...haha..

now..i jz back from KLCC...actuali nth to buy at thr...
damn expensive...so back to home early...haha..

羽球的回忆

2008-09-26T21:39:00.002+08:00

今天和coursemate和一些朋友去打球..
我的coursemate也约了“她”去，我之前是不知道的
然后她sms问我有没有去，我就问是不是我没去，她就不去
她回答说“是，他们约我去打球时我第一个时间是想知道你有没有去”
哈哈...有小小的高兴...有爽到...哈哈
所以今天早上就一起打球咯..
到了那边，她bf也刚巧在那里打球，我看得出她心不在焉...
打打下，我就识相的要闪边凉快去...可是她又叫我回来和她bf打...
我酱差水...怎么能和他们高手比...
当然是不打咯，给他们打...他们俩的球技真的是没话说...
其实...她很美...那晚她的fac night...她真的是惊艳全场...上了妆，set了美美的发型，穿上小礼服就是不一样....她还中选fac queen前三名....
不简单啊，整个faculty最美的前3名...
真人不露相啊真的是...我看了那照片真的整个吓倒..原来lengzai也是Lenglui...

今天听到了杰伦的新歌“稻香”
我喜欢他的歌词，超有意思的...
最喜欢其中一句“珍惜一切，就算没有拥有”...
yes..it's true...i reali appreciate wat i have now, especially what i get after i enter U..
expecially the one make me touched for several times...
even though i know it's impossible to own what i want..
but i reali appreciate that God gv such a nice friend for me..
很多东西就算没有，远远的欣赏还比较开心..
珍惜啊...我会记住这么一句的....

身在异乡的第一个中秋

2008-09-15T19:47:00.000+08:00

今年的中秋是我这个人生里第一个不在自己家乡过的中秋节

往年都一定会和家人吃晚餐先才各自去玩...

今年连晚餐都没得和家人一起享用...

我妈咪还打电话给我，问我晚餐吃什么...=.=

然后我也有和妈咪说中秋节快乐....哈哈..

昨晚的中秋当然是和朋友一起过咯...大学里也有举办活动给我们这些游子...

就有个中秋园游会咯....然后也有一些表演...

我们就和朋友一起提灯笼走去那里...平常觉得那条山路很远，很难走..

but..昨晚都走到很开心...完全不觉得远...

在那个中秋园游会里，我就试试看玩扯铃...

不试还好，试了才知道原来我酱有potential玩扯铃....hahaha...xD..

就..一次有两个人上场...当场有人教你玩扯铃的方法，然后你自己练习下就和另一个比赛..

我之前完全没有玩过扯铃...yoyo也玩得不怎么样...

想不到...昨晚扯铃比赛我竟然赢了...哈哈...我的对手也是很厉害下的..

我们的比赛多多人看下咯...可能因为酱所以我对手紧张下timing不准去...

anyway...我真的很高兴我赢，很开心我玩过扯铃..虽然根本就只是那么一丁点的皮毛而已...

昨晚的表演里就有扯铃表演...那些表演者的演出真的是超劲....

和在电视节目里所看到不相上下咯...有互抛铃子然后接住酱耍来耍去....

实在是佩服这种技术...也有女子表演扯铃哦..虽然她有几次失手了..不过已经很厉害了咯..

去玩中秋园游会..回到宿舍..去之中一个人的房间吃月饼和柚子..

因为她从她家里过完中秋节回来所以就带了这些应节的东西回来...

吃过月饼，竟然疯狂拍照...那几个真的有点玩到傻...

玩到半夜一点多才去睡觉..隔天8点的课，6.30就要起身准备的那种..

所以今天大多数人都没有精神上课..大概都在钓鱼...哈哈...

大致上，这个第一个游子的中秋过得还算不错的... :D

中咖啡毒

2008-09-11T19:08:00.000+08:00

最近我很喜欢喝咖啡...
我想应该是我本来就喜欢喝咖啡，只是以前在家里妈妈不给喝所以就没喝...
到了这里，没有人看住，就乱乱来...
又很常要熬夜...所以喝咖啡的数量也多了..
如果没有咖啡真的不行，一定会睡着的....
可是，现在我变成没事不用熬夜也喜欢来一杯咖啡都爽..==
上瘾了...应该很难戒掉吧...
不过，我知道要控制自己...maximum一天一杯而已...
不可以有事...我不会让别人担心我的...
虽然我喝咖啡会有后遗症..可是我还是很喜欢喝...=.=
每次喝了咖啡，我会喉咙痒痒，严重一点会头痛...
可是...我就是喜欢咖啡冲好后那个香味..喝下去时的快感...
应该和吸毒一样吧...上瘾了都很难戒掉的了...
不过我是中了咖啡的毒...应该是没有酱严重吧...呵呵...

homesick...

2008-09-07T17:54:00.000+08:00

now i am homesick..ing...
at this moment..i am in my room,in front of my laptop..my roommate is sleeping..
i gv solitude to myself..i dun think of anything..those assignments, tests, classes,etc..
deep from my heart..i reali can feel that i miss my family in my hometown..expecially my mum..
i miss her voice..i miss the dishes cooked by her tot b4 i dun appreciate them well..
now i oni knw how delicoius the food she cooked compare to the food in campus...
i miss the sup she cooked..red bean sup..green bean sup..peanut sup..etc..
when i was in my hometown, every week i can enjoy one sup as refreshment..
but now...nothing...i even dun find such sup inside th campus..
if wan to enjoy the sup hv to go outside the campus to buy..if buy oso no the hometown taste..
not as good taste as my mum cooked..xD..
the transpot is the big problem for us to go out from the campus..
altot hv bus provided..but hard to catch the bus..the time owez not fixed...
if dun hv urgent things we won't simply use bus to go out..unless got ppl willing to fetch us..haha..

dunno is the mooncake festival or we call festival tenglung is approaching..
cause my homesick..if so..then每逢佳节倍思亲tis phrase is accurate...
1st time i din celebrate mooncake festival with my family..din hv dinner together with family..
i think i hv to get use to it..coz cny i oso din back to my hometown..cant eat团圆饭with family..
but..nvm..cny i hv my团圆饭together with my aunty's family..
relative oso can consider as my family member one.. :)
tis raya holiday i am going to my aunty thr...hope to c her soon..haha..

i came to west malaysia for 2 months more..i seldom homesick..compare to my friends here..
so far oni once or twice...maybe i am too busy n no time to homesick? or i am cold blood?
i think the 1st one is the reason...haha..
now finish the mid term oni can relax a bit...
when hv free time homesick pula..=.=lolz..
cheers up~ xD

不回房

2008-09-04T14:19:00.000+08:00

昨晚我第一次没在宿舍睡觉，在别人家过夜..
我roommate最近有感情上的问题，很常哭…
每晚躲在自己的床上讲电话，流泪…
这些我都不知道…因为我比她睡，然后她又很控制她的声量…
感情这种事还真的是很烦人的…
So, 为了给她一点空间讲电话和释放自己的情绪..
我就去了church 的sister house 过夜..
其实也是顺便庆祝了一个sister的生日咯..
讲到生日会，整个就是感动来形容..
一个multimedia video 有40分钟久，寿星婆的眼泪就掉足40分钟..
当然还有其它更让她感动的东西…
虽然在那个video里，我被遗忘了…
可能是因为我比较新，毕竟才刚加入了差不多两个月…
But..是真的有点sad..被遗忘的感觉很不好咯…
我好不容易才让那种感觉离开我…
我不要它酱快找回我…….

第二次掉泪

2008-09-04T14:14:00.000+08:00

放假四天，可是四天都没得上网，真的是有够废的...
现在才可以记下这四天所发生的事情...
又是一个星期日...这个星期日我又掉泪了..
现在才知道原来我并不是坚强，可是却厉害逞强..
我很爱哭，小小的不顺心或感动就会掉泪，可是却很讨厌爱掉泪的自己
我想压抑自己，我不喜欢给人看到我的软弱..
我很好胜，有时很自我…我知道这些是不好的，我在努力改进中...

今天，我在一个人生地不熟的地方迷路了…
这世界上原来有一种人，叫做自私的人
有人要跟我拿东西，有common sense的人都知道如果你麻烦一个人，
should be麻烦人的那一个来向主人拿，而不是主人送去给她...
But..就是有人没有这个common sense..
她叫我把东西拿去给她，她的住宿在大学之外..
我要去那里还要早早六点多起身走一段路去大学门外，坐车去那里
到了那里，我以为她会在我下车的地方等我
结果，连个鬼影子都没有!!
她竟然要我走去她的家，我根本就不清楚那里的地方...
这只是我第二次到那里而已，整个taman酱大，我再厉害都没有可能去一次就懂完全部的路..
结果，她给我的guideline又不清不楚，就酱我自己一个人在人生地不熟的地方走着
我朋友他们都不懂，因为我们全部都以为她会在我下车的地方等我，我可以去去就回…
我也是酱以为的，所以他们都没跟着我来，我也不好意思麻烦他们
在那地方走着，又一直call那衰人问到底在哪里..电话严重没有钱
终于找到那衰人时，把东西给她，一句thank you都没有，还怪我害到她去做工迟到
那时，我真的是气到想杀人，我酱辛苦到底是为什么？！得到的又是什么?
走回去我下车的地方我就真的是迷路了，因为我来的时候就是乱乱闯的，所以我不记得路线
超无助的那时，我又是自己一个人走着，又超嗮的，又拿着大bag bag(怕被打抢)..就酱掉泪了..
然后就问人，问到一个“女子”，不过他开口回答我时我就知道我误会了.. 哈哈
这是唯一一个算是比较开心的事吧…
不过，到最后真的要感谢神..我平安无事的回到我的宿舍…
渡过了一个有惊无险的早上…

tear

2008-08-26T11:33:00.000+08:00

actuali wanna chop down sth happened on 24/8/2008, that's last sunday...
last sunday i backed to utm oledi..and i join the 15th anniversary of Hope church..
Hope church is a church that i only knw once i come to here..
i get to know this church through JB one day trip...
as i mentioned b4..a ipoh lenglui fetch me during the JB one day trip..
is that one ipoh lenglui..let me drop my 1st drop of tear since i left my hometown, fly over Southern China sea and come to Johor...
b4 when i was facing with the difficulties and problems at utm, i only feel like wanna cry but i dun want to show my weakness..
i din let my tear come down from my eye at that hard time.....
but...i drop my 1st tear on 24/8/2008 bcoz that ipoh lenglui will leave Johor and fly to US on the next day..
when i hugged with her and talk sth about our meet...
i reali can feel that my tears appeared and come down from my eyes...
i dun reali knw the reason i drop tears...
actuali i only knw that ipoh lenglui not more than 2 months...
thanks God that i can meet her...and hv a good relationship with her...
i reali appreciate the moments together with her...
may God bless her in her new life at US..
p/s :actuali i wanna write in chinese..coz my english not very good..
but the pc i am using now dun hv chinese language...=.=
very lazy to seach for the web typing chinese on9 coz i am attending class now..haha..
jz simply chop down let me dun forget about this event.

一个人

2008-08-16T11:16:00.000+08:00

现在我还在宿舍，还没回家乡...
不过，整楼就只剩下我一个在宿舍了..其他全部zap到爽爽回家去了
我还剩下两个小时也要回家咯哈哈哈哈
还有就是隔壁房的两个senior..去参加她们senior的convosekysen..
所以就真的只剩我一个了...
我还要飞跃南中国海的就是酱麻烦
回来大学的时候我又比人家快一天回来wor..回去比人慢一天回来又比人早一天..
无所谓啦，有得回就好哈哈
实在有点闷到不懂可以做莫...=.=
想到要回家就开心...终于可以回家喝妈妈煮的饭菜了啊...
不用再面对着那些不像食物的食物，都不知道应该讲像什么...
又贵wor...不能吃的还卖酱贵...都不会考虑下我们是穷苦的大学生..还要跨海过来的咧..
我现在只担心飞机会delay...又是airasia wor..
而且现在我这里好像要下雨酱..听我妹说我hometown也是下雨..
酱酱酱真的要很担心咧.....
may GOD bless me.....

b4 back to hometown

2008-08-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

still hv less than 24 hours i will back to my hometown soon..
dunno how to describe my feeling now...
jz nw at the moment i accompany my roommate to take taxi to the bustop and i saw her board the taxi sambil say bye to me..got a kind of feeling like sad or she bu de..==even though we r not very close actuali..
now i am inside my friend's room using her dekstop to type this post..
coz i dun feel like wanna sleep alone tonite..
i am not afraid of sleeping alone..b4 my roommate back to her hometown, i oso slept alone in my room..
but tonite..i oso dunno why..jz dun wan to sleep alone in my room..
maybe bcoz jz nw i saw an unknown insect fly into my room..==
i reali very unhappy with the location of my room.. the most beside room and near to the jungle at the back...many insects will simply fly into my room..like the cockroach last time...
however, if we dun open the window , we will breathe hardly inside the room coz dun hv fresh osygen mah...reali difficult oso..
hmm...tomoro gonna back to hometown le..
dunno will miss sumone or not...haha..
i think...the way i treat her reali beyond wat i thought..
maybe should be controled more...
keep in mind...........
we r jz friend, we r jz friend...good friend maybe..

test--->mark

2008-08-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

next week is totally full of quiz and test...
then sem break is coming...
after back from sem break nid to fight with the test again..adui..
test and quiz non-stop..
sumtime assignments and labs oso wanna join the non-stop group..
this is the actual University life...
maybe i not yet get use with it...
my super senior who is studying master now told me that
it's a super ordinary and normal case for computer science students to burn midnight oil jz wan to complete the assignment, project or watever...sumtime even din sleep for whole night jz bcoz wanna write the code for programming...
i think it's the time for me to live with coffee...

next week got maths test...this is the most difficult subj for me..
actuali maths owez is my favourite subj b4..
but...now...bcoz of my useless lecture owez talking shit in the class..
i totally get lost in maths...
everythings nid to learn n study by ourselves..skip many sub topics..
thought that we r reali genius meh...

erm..up to now..i had 1 quiz n test b4..
i scored full marks for quiz..and grade A for test..haha..
it is a good encouragerous for me to put more effort on my study..
i am one of the "比较厉害的人" in my class...
but...say truthly....my std is ok oni...nid to be improved more...

gambateh to myself...+ u + u ah~

gaza..cockraoch..蟑螂

2008-08-07T13:09:00.000+08:00

昨晚我们wing的女子都被蟑螂弄到鸡飞狗跳..
I went to library to carry on my duty at 9pm..
Other ppl stay in their roosm coz the time to duty is different..
Last night 9 until 12, I sit together with my “lengzai” friend…xD
Actuali she is one of the reason for me to change my duty time different with all of my housemates...haha… shh…
During the duty period, I think it can be consider as my happy hours…haha..
Although I am busy teaching her the skill to do programming, I enjoy it and I would treat is as a honor..coz can teach the one special to me… haha..
Aiks..far away from title ady..再写下去就感觉像整个花痴酱…

When I finish my duty at 12am I walked back to my hostel..is she accompany me to walk back tim..xD..
Once I stepped into my room..my roommate told me that jz nw got a cockroach fly in the room but finally caught by one of the hosemate..
I heard her describition, laugh until wanna faint.. coz I reali thought that we r human being scare a small cockroach is a damn timid thing..
Around 1am..i get into my bed n prepare to sleep..but suddenly…
My roommate scream, shout n run like hell…= =
a cockroach fly into my room..damn shit ah reali...
Then I chase the cockroach wanna hit it..= = but it fly very fast..i can’t catch it.. then I give up to find it..jz let it hide…but..after 20 minutes…
A scary screaming come out from my next door…
The cockroach fly to their room..= =
This cockroach reali 生命力超强..can fly up to 8th floor then fly to next door sumore..
But I wonder why so many cockroach fly into my room de..= =
A terrible n memorable night..bcoz of cockroach…

erm..

2008-07-30T21:53:00.000+08:00

erm..finally finish my programming test today...
but i am not confident with my answer..
my answer very unique, not same with my friends'
dunno which one is correct..
reali hope that i can get good result...
i dunno why start from my U life..i very emphasis on marks..
that day i lost half mark for lab work..reali feel so sad for it..
maybe i am too stressful..coz i owez told myself nid to get into 1st class..
today programming test..feel sad for it oso...==

talk about happy thing 1st...
yesterday my friend lose in badminton competition..
today she won oledi...hahahaha..
i reali feel very happy and excited sincerely once i knw she won the competition..
对于她，我真的有说不出的好感...
从我第一眼见到她，就觉得她cool cool的...
最近我好像经常在朋友面前提到她
然后就给人gek...bla bla bla...
他们说我脸红，不懂是真假...哈哈...

mad + down

2008-07-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

i reali dunno how to describe my feeling now...
many unhappy things happened..
today my friend lose in bandminton competition...
she play double group..but her partner reali kns...
at the time she was hving the match..actuali i nid to attend my english class..
but i lie to my lecture that i nid to go for archery training..
so i only sit in the class for half an hour then said bye to lecture..
actuali i reali hv archery training at that time..
i choose not to go for archery training but go to comlex sukan to gv her fully support and shun bian watch the match..
i'm not disspointed with my friend's performance..but is shock n dissapointed with her partner's performance..b4 i thought that her partner hv good badminton skill tim..

Now..i am studying my programming notes..
i reali very confuse with the stuff inside ah...damn..
ask others oso blur blur..tomoro got test sumore..
like tis how to sit for the test? how to get 1st class?
damn! 1st time i study till feel like wanna cry le...
last lab excersice i oledi less half marks compare to others..
i must work hard to get back my half mark...
another thing is my mathematic lecture..jz change to a foreign lecture to teach us..
reali hard to understand the english language use by that lecture..
even worse is he din teach us the method but then gv us the question to solve it by ourself..
if like this...then better for me to study at my hostel and no nid to waste time and energy to go to lecture room la...
exhausted...moody... ==

想哭了

2008-07-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

最近很烦，很累，很忙
电脑才用了一个月jek..什么鬼问题都出埋来
format过了竟然还是同样的问题，bluescreen...!!!wtf!
call dell 都没有用的，竟然要我花多RM179 来买他们的software support他们才帮我弄..
我现在真的很怀疑到底是不是hardware failure..是的话就轰死dell..
然后又超多活动，很多东西要做啦，又很多quiz..test咯..
做到我都快要垮了
那天还跑去参加射箭，其实还不错的说，不过手很酸咯
不过，最让我头痛的还是我的电脑问题...超无助的...
我朋友好像都不是很行酱，给他format了做到我的webcam不能用...==
我已经觉得我无助到一种让我想掉泪的冲动了
不懂该相信谁，不懂该怎么做选择
这是我千里迢迢来到这里酱久之后，第一次觉得酱彷徨无助
我很想很想很想掉泪了
这里的朋友都说我很坚强因为酱远到这里都没有掉泪过
其实，我一点都不坚强，当我觉得很无助时我的懦弱会完全呈现在别人面前...
我已经失去方向...不懂该怎么解决这一堆的问题了....

这几天

2008-07-22T19:23:00.001+08:00

这几天不懂干吗只有我这一栋不能用cable上网..
害我要做assignment都不能..头痛啊这种东西

上个星期日很努力的在啃书只是为了应付一个quiz...
我自己都吓倒，这是我第一次为了一个小小的quiz酱努力去温书
星期一quiz，星期日全部人都在温书，做tutorial..
我星期日还去了教堂然后去jusco逛下买买东西才回去宿舍开始拼
还好那天回宿舍的巴士很准时，没有浪费时间在那里等
回到宿舍都已经下午一点了，摸下摸下大概两点才开始温书
还不错啦，有温到好好来
晚上就全部温好了，十点才开始做tutorial练习 ==
十一点做完了，只花了一粒钟而已..炸到够力下..
因为我朋友她们花了好久时间才做好它...
不懂zomok酱紫
那天晚上我是最早睡的那个，十二点躺下睡觉了，其他人好像读到一两点
大家都酱努力温书，结果教授说postpone quiz到下个星期
全部没有力去....

顺便讲讲我的roommate..
她很famous wor..才进来这里差不多一个月..
就有男子暗恋她，还不只一个tim...
有一个还更明显的做出一些仰慕她的动作...
像今天上课时全部挤到教授那里看pc installation..只有他们两个坐在那里聊天..
不过，可惜的是she is not available anymore..
but..i reali shock that she is so famous..haha..

jz simply chop down..

2008-07-17T11:23:00.000+08:00

now i am attending my information technology class...
the lecture is introducing a computer..sth like wat is a computer..
the components inside the computer bla bla bla..
a bit boring for me lo...so..
using the facility provided to do my own things..tat's blogging..haha

erm..let talk about the subject i take for this semester
i take IT (class now), programming technique, digital logic, english, mathematic, hubungan etnik (useless subject which talk about perpaduan)
up to now..i think the most difficult subj for me is digital logic..
very confused with wat the lecture taught us...
next week will hv a quiz for tis subj oledi..damn fast..reali nid to work hard on it..
another subj which i feel is quite tough for me is programming ..
nid to memorise many codes...and must be patient and careful when writting the code..
a small small mistakes such as a coma, space etc will failed the compiling...
i am the type reali very impatient..if the compiling is failed..
i will be very suffer to find out which part i made mistakes...at that time i reali feel like wanna smash the pc ady..==

oh ya...one important nid to chop down oso..
that's i hv a two new housemate who r senior..
one of them studies master in software eng tim..my super senior jz stay beside me.. haha..
another one takes techonology management, 2nd year student..very lenglui wor~ ^^
wow..a lenglui n a master jz live beside my room...
that lenglui reali very sui o..skin fair fair de..owez wear very short paint walk around..sexy neh... hahahaha..
on the 1st day they move in,me oledi gepo gepo go n talk with them..
i think they only knw me among all the housemates..
that's y they will smile to me when they meet me...haha..
super senior and super lenglui greet with me wor~ haha..xD
ops..paiseh..me a bit ki siao liao..
actuali i oso can't reali knw wat i am writing now.. ==

times up! time to back...hahaha...

badminton

2008-07-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

刚才和朋友一起打羽球，其实是之前约好的
和大学的一群新朋友一起打
嗯，其实是有个羽球选拔赛，被选中的有机会代表宿舍参加比赛
然后有个朋友，她也是很喜欢打羽球的
她的气势简直就是运动健将，给人一种她很强的感觉，有点酷酷酱
第一眼看到她就想多看她两眼了，她给我的感觉很好哈哈
慢慢的和她交谈了，发现原来她一点都不酷的，人很好，满温柔的其实
她很喜欢打羽球，如果她去比赛，对手一定先被她的气势打败了哈哈
讲回羽球选拔赛
我竟然完全失水准去，连开球，球都接不稳，不用讲要接人家smash过来的球
只能躲罢了...超烂的我今天..根本就没有smash对手..只有捡球的份..
其实，今天我的对手不强...==
可是我还是输了，或许是因为太久没有练习，而且我刚开始时很紧张..
出球的力度和速度都不够...更不用讲敏捷度，人家突然打轻球我根本来不及反应...
这是我第一次打羽球输到酱惨，几乎是抱零.. :(

不过hor..我的那个酷酷的朋友就不同了
她不只气势赢人，连球技都超棒的...
她出球超有力的，她出的每一粒球都狠狠打向对方..
敏捷度也是很棒，反应很够力快..
Smash球的技巧真的是会让我佩服得五体投地..
她打球超帅的…我们在场的几个朋友全部看到傻眼…
我还没对到她就已经打输了…
不过她看得出我在打球的时候很紧张，连球拍都握不稳
虽然她球技酱好，可是她很谦虚
她打好还跟我一起练球…她跟我打的时候完完全全在迁就我..
完全没有smash我..她打到很轻松..我接到很累..
我还一时脚软跌倒去…更bai的是我打到半半竟然手痛，拉到筋..
整个手没有力去…然后吓倒她..赶快帮我按摩手..
还到处找yogo yogo 给我…哈哈..
真是paiseh啦…酱烂的球技跑去和酱强的对手打..
还让人家很内疚去..明明就是我自己比不过她
不过，我很开心今天..虽然我输了..我很enjoy和她打球..
但是我对badminton的热情重新回到我体内了..
以后我一定会好好练习了..有个酱强的朋友一起练习超爽的..哈哈

JB一日游

2008-07-12T18:52:00.000+08:00

其实JB一日游是3天的事情
不过因为最近很不得空写，所以就拖到现在才写
而且最近宿舍的线也不好的咯

这个JB一日游就有去了动物园...
拍了很多照片，也看到了很多动物...
也去了博物馆，里面其实没有什么好看..
就是喜欢里面的冷气而已.. 哈哈..
去city square..里面的东西不便宜的说..
有看到kim gary..可是没有进去到，因为很多人那时...
而且我还和大队走散去，还好最后有call到朋友
很遗憾其实没有去到kim gary吃
不过也还好没去，因为一进去就会破产了..==
现在超缺钱的，唉钱钱钱钱不够用啊...
然后就有去吃steambot..超棒的，吃到很撑... 哈哈

有认识到新朋友
不过最吸引我的是载我的driver...ipoh lenglui来的哈哈
人很好，读书很棒，讲话有时很冷哈哈

对这个一日游的总结是
我喜欢哦~i like tis jb one day trip! xD

在大学的新日子

2008-07-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

今天开始正式上课了
第一天上课竟然有点狼狈，6.45am起身
7点下楼等巴士，7.30上巴士
7.50到某个巴士站，然后赶着去自己的kuliah
很够力赶下，下楼上楼过桥，累到很够力
然后又陆陆续续上了3堂课
到6.30pm才正式下课，结果竟然又要自己走路回宿舍
走了大概30分钟才回到宿舍
回到来已经好累了，然后冲凉洗衣
8.30pm才下楼去食堂吃
结果朋友们都吃好了，我的食物还没出来
等到没有力，打包回去吃下差点晕掉，超辣的
真的很担心以后我的日子要怎么过，全部食物都是超辣，我又不会吃辣
也只有挨饿的份了，顺便减肥咯… 哈哈

至于我的课堂，今天上了3堂课，都只是介绍酱而已…
英文科的讲师好像很懒酱哈哈==
努力努力努力啊~要进1st class才对得起自己和我的天才干妹妹

至于新朋友，到目前为止都满nice的
同一个floor的朋友都认识了
应该都是不错的吧.. 哈哈
可是，我还是很想念着在KL的那个……..

新生活

2008-07-01T13:27:00.000+08:00

到这个新的地方有3天了，今天是第4天
讲真的，我好像没有很想家
只是真的很想我家乡的食物，
这里的马来食物真的超难吃的，很辣又好像没煮熟
我的几个朋友，室友她们不懂干吗超想家的
和家人通电话都会哭到够力
不懂我是太冷血还是怎样真的没有酱想家咯
还有就是很想念我的天才干妹妹
真的超想她啊
没有她在我身边，总觉得我做什么都怪怪的
至于新朋友，留着下次再讲哈哈..
现在又要出去集合了，超累的..

要飞咯

2008-06-27T01:24:00.000+08:00

还剩下不到24小时我就要离开这个一直伴着我长大的城市了
去到一个陌生的城市深造
真的很舍不得我的天才干妹妹
以后我的生活没了天才在我身边，不明白的东西都要靠自己研究了
还有我的好妈妈，没了她在我身边
我真的不敢想象我的日常生活会有多糟糕
算了，人始终还是要长大独立，学会自己照顾自己的
加油加油加油~大家一起加油哦！